Contemplations Within Struggle

Randomness~

2008-06-06T13:45:00.003+08:00

[mood | sleepy]
[music | Nodame Cantabile Anime OST - K.545]

Meh it really seems that my blogging self is dying, ahaha but anyway~ just a few days more before school resumes/starts... ~_~ And I'm feeling lazy. I still can't believe I'm in fourth year college already O_O Time's so damn fast haha.

Anyway... just dropping by to update a bit. I'll be leaving in a while as we're going to have some "back-to-school" shopping. I'm gonna buy a few notebooks and also some ballpens haha. Although I guess the main thingy that will take me some time would be the bag shopping... since I'm too picky ahaha.

Oh and about the leadership training last May 27-29... it was okay. I didn't really "feel" that May 27 was my birthday since we had a lot of activities and stuff... Although the venue was great xD I felt like I was staying in a hotel of some sort lol. Although there's no TV (duh, it's a retreat house). xD

As for the event last May 31, it was pretty boring. I felt like I wasted 100php for the ticket (lol I think the only reason why I went to the event was to buy DVDs haha). I would've been bored to death if it weren't for the Ichi people, although I guess we spent more time outside the event ahahaha.

I also celebrated my birthday that day (since I didn't really celebrate when I was at the leadership training). I treated them to some pizza at Pizza Hut (it was kinda funny since three of us were wearing Code Geass costumes)... although I wasn't too content with the treating since my budget was only 2k. I wish I had more money so each person could have at least 2 slices of pizza...but oh well. I didn't expect them to be that many ahaha lol. But yeah.. it was fun. I didn't even expect the Pizza Hut staff to sing a birthday song for me o_O Ahaha. Happy birthday ... Gino? LOL.

On a random note, I've recently learned how to make my own Multiply layout/theme. And being the addict that I am, I used a Code Geass picture. 8D I used a picture of C.C., which was from the ending theme "Mosaic Kakera", and set it to a semi-sepia-ish color. Haha~ I think it fits my Multiply site's title, though. Hee. I also made Multiply layouts/themes for some of my friends in Ichi, namely Patteh (a child!Lelouch theme), Vexille (a Karen theme), and kuro_woof (a Lelouch theme). I also made a Toudou theme for Matrixshino and a Suzaku theme for Saowie.

It's kinda funny that I'm obsessed with Gino but I didn't use him for my Multiply layout. Ahaha. Oh well xD

Hmm I think I'm starting to talk nonsense (but I always do, right?LOL) again haha. Bye for now.

OUTing day.

2008-05-24T14:09:00.002+08:00

[mood | bored]
[music | Princess Princess - DIAMONDS (Guitar Freaks music)]

Guhhhh. I'm so bored, lol. Nothing much, really, I just thought of posting since I'm.. well, bored. LOL.

Today is Ichiraku's outing [swimming] day, and it's an overnight activity. Knowing my parents, they won't allow me to go, but I understand. Besides, I'm not really thinking of joining the activity in the first place, considering that I also have my own "overnight" activity coming up this week (which is the leadership training from May 27-29). lol.

So yeah... I'm bored, and most of the Ichiraku people are offline since they're joining the outing. And what frustrates me is that the forum is offline as well, lol. Just like Tomoe-san (who's not joining the outing as well) said, the forum also "joined" the outing hahahahaha.

Meh~ but at least, I got to play DDR awhile ago (right after dropping by at school). Too bad I couldn't stay long. D: But oh well. At least I got to play hahaha.

I'm really bored but I don't feel like working on my Gaia art orders, ahaha. Besides, I don't think I'd be able to buy those collectible wings anyway, they're too expensive D:

Ah well.. I can't think of anything to type as of now, ahhahahahaa bye

I really need to wake up.

2008-05-21T09:08:00.002+08:00

[mood | bored]
[music | Kozo Nakamura - Dragon Blade]

And what I meant by the title is that I need to "reawaken" my blogging enthusiasm. lol. xD I dunno, maybe because of my busy schedule nowadays, I rarely have the time (and inspiration?) to blog.

Although my blogging hasn't really "stopped" since... *looks at archive* December 2007. Hee. I've been blogging a few stuff on my Multiply, although they're not that of much importance (kinda). ~_~

I just thought of updating my blog right now since... I just updated (or rather, added some new stuff) on my fanlistings list, specifically some Code Geass fanlistings. Code Geass is my current anime addiction right now, since its second season is out. Hee.

So what have I been up to for the past 4-5 months? As always I've been busy with school from January to March, then by March-May I've been busy with my OJT (on-the-job training) which is a requirement of our school. I've recently completed my 240 hours of "service" and I've obtained quite a good grade, which is 98%. xD

Oh and let's not forget about cosplay, haha. Last March we (our Tsubasa group) had a photoshoot, and last April 6 I cosplayed a new character. Although, the costume's not complete yet as I still have to style/fix the wig for it. I'm hoping to cosplay the character again this coming event on May 31.

To those who know who I'm cosplaying, please be kind, lol. I know my skin color's way too far from the character's skin color, but I just wanted to cosplay him. Hehe. He's so happy and I fell in love with the character right away, lol.

On a random note, I've recently been addicted to some arcade games, thanks to our Forum's "Timezone invasion" sessions last May 3 and May 17. I was able to try DDR (Dance Dance Revolution) but I can only do the basic levels (not all lol). When I tried the difficult level I just stared at the screen since it was so.. difficult *_*

I got more addicted to GF (Guitar Freaks) though. I can only do a few songs, and it's in standard mode. But it's fun. Heck, I even went to the mall (that's near to the place where I had my OJT) and played the game... in office attire. LOL.

As of now, I'm "free" this week, and most of the time I'm staying here at home hehe. Kinda boring, but I guess it's okay. Although I hope I'd be able to play at the arcade on Friday, before I would be "locked up" in our leadership training on May 27-29.

Hee, it seems that next week would be a busy week for me. It'd be our pre-registration on the 26th, then it'd be our leadership training on the 27th up to the 29th (the first day of the training falls on my birthday, damn. I'd be spending my birthday with Terrans?!), then on the 31st I'd be attending the cosplay event. Whee.

Then on June 3 it'd be our enrollment. Whoo.

I don't want school to start yet. Meh. I'm still feeling lazy. D:
The only thing that makes me want to go to school is *cough* allowance. Haha.

Anyway.. lol I'm out of words. XD~ bye now.

O.O

2007-12-28T20:32:00.000+08:00

[mood | giddy]
[music | Flame of Recca on tv, lol]

lol 2007's almost over .__.
And I haven't updated my blog that much... but.. oh well. I'm still active with other stuff though, particularly in the forums (Ichiraku Ramen, where else?xD), Gaia Online and of course, Multiply (kinda). xDD haha.

Anyway~ I just thought of leaving a greeting...

Advanced happy new year to everyone. XD

Ugh. ~.~

2007-07-26T17:21:00.000+08:00

[mood | blah]
[music | none, I'm watching tv~]

Meh, I'm home~
... Well actually, I arrived home at about an hour ago, but I was busy watching tv and eating spaghetti. xD

The parish service was okay, although I guess I didn't do much except write entries [from vouchers] on the columnar notebook, cut scratch papers into smaller sizes and stamp the church's name onto receipt booklets.. ~_~

Generally speaking, my hand got tired with all that stamping (I was kinda okay with the writing since the entries that I had to write weren't that many), but my mind was kinda bored.

Oh well, I'm kinda happy that I got to render service and at least, I got to finish our requirement in Religion. So, yay~ XD

Other than that, my brain is kinda dead right now, so if ever there are grammatical errors in my entry, please forgive me. ~_~

Man~ my brain is dead, haha. And to think that I still have to review for our long test (formulas galore!) in Accounting. And do some advanced reading for Religion. And do this advertising thingy (which I didn't understand much about what to do) for English. And type my written report for Marketing Management.

Aaaaand I have to continue (or should I say, start) on my story for our Rizal subject, even if it's going to be passed next week. Well it's a story after all, so I need all the time to write since.. I'm not really inspired to write a story at the moment. x_x

Anyway bye for now, my brain's dying and I can't think of anything to update about anymore. XDD

Late announcements~

2007-07-25T19:11:00.000+08:00

[mood | aggravated, somehow...]
[music | Suga Shikao - Phonoscope]

Woohoo, I'm blogging again. lolol~ I'm alive. o_O

Anyway, it's another Wednesday night. :3 Whee~ it's great, since we don't have classes during Thursdays (except when we have an activity or something, since Thursday is an activity day). So~ in a way, tomorrow (Thursday) is a one-day vacation... but tomorrow's not really a "vacation" for me since I have things to do.

We have this requirement in Religion which is to render 6 hours of service in your parish. And well, being the picky person that I am, I chose to render service in the parish office. XD Well, it's still PARISH service anyway. And I think I'd work better in the office rather than being a reader/commentator/choir member/something else for the mass. I think. ~_~

Anyway~ so there, I'm scheduled to "report to work" tomorrow at 8am. I'm not yet sure as to until what time I'm going to stay/work there, but I assume it's for about 6 hours. The only thing I dunno is .. what time is my lunch break o_O

So there.

All is settled tomorrow, although my mood(?) was kinda broken when one of my classmates texted me a few minutes ago, and told me that there's a recollection (I think it is, since the location is the recollection room o.O) tomorrow morning for us third year Management students. =__=" And she added that there's a general assembly tomorrow afternoon... so generally speaking, us Management students are required to attend tomorrow.

So when I read the text message, I was like "O_O wtf?"

Although, even if I've reacted like that, I'm still determined on attending my parish service. ~.~ I'm ditching the recollection and general assembly, since I need to accomplish my parish service before the midterm exams. Besides, I'm too ashamed to ditch my parish service since... I'm a part of that parish and they might be expecting my help and stuff. ~.~

After all, it's the school's fault for making late announcements. Like what the heck, we had the whole day to wait for announcements about recollections and stuff, but we didn't get any... So we assumed that there won't be any activity for tomorrow. =_= Duh~

Or maybe, the announcement was so weak that only an ant could hear it...? The sound system for the broadcast seems... kinda weak, for me at least. Because our professor could easily 'overpower' the announcement with his voice, hahaha. Just like in our class awhile ago, I didn't understand any of the announcements since the sounds were... muffled(?).

Ah what the heck. Man, didn't they even consider that some students (who knows) would have plans for Thursday (like me)? And then all of a sudden, they'd announce something like that... =_=

But no. They're not foiling my plan to render service for my parish!!! XD Bleh. :P

Besides, it's not everyday that I'd be enthusiastic about things like these, haha. I remembered our Religion class last semester, I didn't do any church/parish service, yet I still got a line-of-9 grade during the finals. o.O Kinda weird, no?

Anyway~ this post is getting too long, I still need to do some homework (since I don't have much time to do them tomorrow, haha). Bye for now~

After around 4 months... o.o

2007-07-24T19:10:00.000+08:00

[mood | giddy]
[music | Tsubasa/xxxHOLiC Radio Drama - Private High School Horitsuba Gakuen 1]

...I'm back. O_O

Well, not for good, but I felt like posting for the meantime. XD;; To let you know I'm still ALIVEEEEEEEEE~

I have this "thought pad" thingy, which served as a mini-diary for me. But seeing as I usually slack off when writing, I guess going back to my online diary would be better. But I guess, I can't really say since life is so busy, especially now that I'm in 3rd year college and all. =_=;;

Anyway, that's all for now. :P

About the layout, I'll change it sometime soon, when I'm in the mood. Although all I can say for now is this: expect me to make a Tsubasa layout, since I'm currently addicted to it. XD haha

Okay bye~ :P

Return of the comeback. LOL.

2007-03-17T22:21:00.000+08:00

[mood | sleepy]
[music | GLAY - 100man kai no KISS ]

Meh~ long time no update >.> I've been too busy with school. A lot of things have happened but they're not all that special anyway, and I'm not really in the mood to type everything that happened since my last update D:

Anyway, just letting you know I'm still alive ~.~ And I have a new layout! Whee. Gotta love Train~ thank God for animax XD Woot.

...Oh and it's our vacation now, too! Whee. Although it's not a guarantee that I'd update everyday. XD

Okay then, bye D:

Facing the consequences~

2007-01-15T21:59:00.000+08:00

[mood | rushed]
[music | the keyboard, lol]

Meh~ cramming review... since I did nothing during the weekend. Haha. XD Woot~ I swear I have a bleak future. And I'm gonna get murdered by my parents and some of my professors if my grades won't be line of 9s... And I guess I'll have to bid farewell to cosplaying when that happens. XD

Anyway~ 'tis just a quick post. It's getting late and I haven't memorized anything for our first exam tomorrow (which is Entrep). Although I guess it's a bit late to cram review now since my parents are in the room and ... if I review in Entrep now, they'll find out that I didn't review during the weekend. Haha. ~_~ Meh, and to think that our test would be all-enumeration and essay for Entrep. Whaaaaaaaaaa.

...What I did for tonight is to rest a bit (since we had our PE practical exams, even though I didn't do much during the volleyball game), do the reviewer for Phil. Lit., drink coffee and download mp3. Haha.

Oh well. I just hope I'd be able to answer decently tomorrow, which I doubt. XD

Ah whatever~ bye now.

P.S.: To Sakura/Kittikai, are you still alive? I haven't heard from you in a while.

Annoyance, disappointment... and laziness? o.O

2007-01-14T20:36:00.000+08:00

[mood | relaxed... somehow]
[music | WeiB Kreuz - Mellow Candle]

Meh~ midterms week from Jan. 15 - Jan. 19, and I'm still not done doing my reviewer for ... for.. Entrep XD Although I might ditch this task later and move on to making a reviewer for Philippine Literature. >_> I can't help but think about WHY am I making a reviewer for Entrep despite the fact that my notes are still... "reviewable"? Although I just can't stand it since it's a bit messed up. XD

Ah well. Bahala na. I guess I was just too distracted by doing "other stuff" since yesterday and today. *coughcoughtsukihimemarathoncough*

Sooo anyway~ our midterms are going to be 'til Friday, and most of them will occupy my "morning time" except for Tuesday and Wednesday, wherein I'll be having exams for the whole day until 4pm. Meh~ I can't wait. I guess I'll start preparing for my cosplay stuff when I get home on the 19th.

I need to make good with my studies (and of course, my upcoming cosplay on January 28). <3 lol. But anyway.

Okay, I guess I should elaborate on why I chose the entry title to be the, well, entry title XD The laziness part is obvious, but what about the first two words?

Erm, it was like this~ I was downloading the setup thingy for Windows Media Player 11. I tried downloading it yesterday, but after around an hour and a half of waiting, my mom suddenly told me that she needs to use the phone (which I was using at that time to get online). So I disconnected, much to my dismay.

Then I resumed the download yesterday night and I was quite glad that Firefox remembered where I "stopped" downloading. So it resumed. Unfortunately, I suddenly got disconnected when the download was 90% complete. ~_~" So yeah, I was annoyed again.

And today I tried downloading it, but then the lights blinked, and my computer restarted. So I had to start over again.

It finished downloading but I found out that I can't install it since my copy of windows is, well, not .. *coughcoughgenuinecough*. ~__~" Darn, after all that hard work. Oh well.

I guess I'll just stick to Windows Media Player 10. lol.

Ah well. I guess that's all for now, I need to review a bit. So at least, I can still tell myself, "Hey, I reviewed."... even if it's just a little bit, knowing the lazy person that I am. XD

I just hope my midterm grades would be okay. Or else, I'm gonna be murdered by some of my old professors and also my parents. XD Then again, hoping won't do anything, anyway.

Oh well, enough blabbering XD I'm gonna stop now. Bye~

First post for 2007 (can't think of an entry title) xD

2007-01-08T09:26:00.000+08:00

[mood | accomplished... yet unaccomplished XD]
[music | Rozen Maiden - Baragoku Otome]

Wheee, new year, new layout. XD lol, I know it's already January 8, but what the heck~ I finished the layout, finally. I dunno but I felt like making a "firey" layout this time. And I think it's a bit bright, but oh well. ^^;;

So it's back to school again (although we already had classes starting on Jan.4), and I'm still feeling a bit lazy... it's evident, really. I spent my Saturday and Sunday doing nothing, and to think that I have a looooooong homework in Philippine Literature, and I still haven't finished my Flash movie (for our multimedia subject) which is going to be submitten this Tuesday (which is tomorrow!). O_O Haha, I'm so lazy. I don't have a bright future...... ~_~" Ah what the heck. I guess I was just too bummed during the vacation, especially when my stuff got stolen when we were still in the "province". ~_~" Although I'm quite happy now since at least, my parents bought me a new iPod and a new "extra" cellphone (which would be soon "open-lined" for a Sun simcard). They said that they'll just buy the digicam when there'd be another anime event (lol).

I haven't told them about the Jan. 28 event yet, since I'm not really sure if my midterm grades would be good. So I guess it'd be better if I stay quiet for now... although they already know of my next cosplay plans (there are two of them). Although I think my costume for March/April (the Vampire Knight costume) would be one of my last costumes. >.> I'm not really complaining though, since after all, cosplay is somewhat an expensive hobby. xD And I'm already running low on funds, so yeah.

Anyway~ that's all for now, I guess, I still have loads of stuff (it's homework this time XD) to do... I'm pretty sure my parents would kill me again if I don't do them now ~_~ Besides, they're gonna kill me even more if I'd be sleeping late tonight. XD They'd be like "what were you doing during the weekend?!" and stuff. Meeeh~

Oh, and on a random note, I'm getting amused with Rozen Maiden and Deathnote. Wheee.

Okay, bye now. *runs*

Sentimental?

2006-12-24T12:23:00.000+08:00

[mood | groggy/tired/weak o.O]
[music | a Sakura Wars song which I dunno the title yet ^^;;;]

Meh~ just woke up. XD I guess I was too tired last night, and in the middle of the night, I had a high fever. ~_~" But I guess I'm okay now, I hope. Although my back is still aching.. kinda. XD

So yesterday was the Collectibles Mega Xmas Expo~ and there was a cosplay catwalk (no competition though). There were only around 70+ participants so I guess the catwalk kinda ended early. XD Although it was okay since, honestly, we spent more time outside of Megatrade hall (where the event was held)... so yeah o.o

Hmm. I'm kinda speechless right now XD I guess I'm still braindead after the fever. ~_~ I'm not even supposed to be online right now, but what the heck. XD

Anyway. To those who I've been with for the day, thanks for the moments <3 Even if my body hurts like hell, I won't ever regret spending my day [yesterday] with you guys. XD

And other than that, I'm greeting everyone in advance since I might not be online for a few days, since we're going to "the province". XD

Happy holidays!

Just taking down a quote...

2006-12-13T21:51:00.000+08:00

[mood | contemplative]
[music | silence]

"The first feeling was rather one of pity. Not anger; not despair. It's just, I thought everything before my eyes is pitiful. Though of course, the most pitiful thing was myself."
-Status message of a friend in YM

Since I have no other place to put this, I'll just put this here. XD

And yep, that's all, since I have homework =_= Just a few.........days more before vacation. But December 22 (our first day of vacation) seems so faaaaaaar. *groans*

Oh well. Bye~

(I didn't realize that this was saved as a draft o_O lol. Anyway~ there, posted.)

Ugh. Someone please...

2006-12-04T21:37:00.000+08:00

[mood | enraged...kinda]
[music | the TV, and my parents]

... someone please, enlighten me. (Read: enlighten, not scold) XD

Meh, I dunno what to post, really... since I'm kinda paranoid at the moment for my parents are in my room, and they might be wondering what the f*** am I typing.

I dunno, for some reason, I feel enraged. Well, kinda. Maybe it's because of what my parents were "indirectly talking about" awhile ago. It's something like, they were talking among themselves, but as I hear the conversation, I had the feeling that they were indirectly "scolding" me. Sorry, I dunno how to describe it in English. For those who understand Filipino, what I meant is "Nagpaparinig sila... again.

They told me about two things... and these two things were things that I usually did when I was just a little kid.

First, they told me that when I was a kid, I usually prayed while kneeling down. While now, I don't pray while kneeling down, and [even though it's true] I tend to pray while lying down, before I sleep.

According to my current Religion class, prayer doesn't really require for you to mind how you pray (whether standing, with hands raised, with crossed arms, etc.)... so why should my parents say that? Are they saying that I should always kneel when I pray? Wtf. Forgive me, but I can't really see their point at what they said...

The second was about me eating in my room and not joining them at the dinner table. Okay, I admit, it's quite wrong, but I'm kinda fed up sometimes of eating with them especially if I only get scolded at the dinner table (which, removes my appetite and destroys my mood).. but meh.

I can't help but think that.. with all of these (that they said), it seems that they want the old me back. They want the "child" version of me back, because back then, I was their angel. Now, it seems that I am nothing more than a demon.

A lot of things are floating around my mind and it seems that my parents can't accept the "changing" of my being/personality. I guess I inherited this from them, considering that I am quite unable to adapt to change...

Everything cosplay post. Kinda. ~_~

2006-12-03T20:43:00.000+08:00

[mood | lazy]
[music | this...action movie that my dad's watching]

Okay, Aishi-chama/Jeddy said that I should update. Soooo, I'm updating. XDD lol

Ah, there's nothing like a blog entry to start a new... month? o.O *snorts* What am I saying? XD Meh, I guess I'm just... kinda braindead as of the moment >.> Considering that classes were suspended this Thursday (because they said there's a storm, however it didn't directly hit Metro Manila), and as for Friday, it's a holiday. So yep, I'm getting a 4-day weekend. ~_~ Although I'm kinda bored, to be honest. XD But I don't want to go to school right now. lol.

Meh >.> We went to Divisoria too (along with Nicole), and I got to buy my Isaak wig. XD *dances* It's quite good that I got to buy it because I wanted to cosplay costrip (cosplay trip) as Isaak for December 9... I just read that there'd be TB cosplayers there and... I wanna join in. lol XD And I wanted to take a peek at our forum's booth, too. I wonder what they'll do for the booth~ XD

...

Then again, I really doubt that I'd be able to the December 9 event, anyway. ~_~ It's kinda far, it's in UP Diliman. O.O; And it'd take a miracle for me to be able to go there. XD *imagines herself being strangled by her parents*

Oh well, it's not a sin to hope anyway. Is it? XD

...

It seems that I'm planning too much about cosplay, and I'm not considering my super-duper low budget/savings. XD I guess I still have some cash in my piggy bank Pikachu bank, but that's for ... savings XD And not for cosplay. So far, my savings for cosplay consist of: my part of the prize money during the Hero con cosplay (wherein our group got the grand prize, surprisingly), and a small amount of money that was *cough* I dunno. I dunno how to describe it in English XD Let's just say, perang kinurakot sa allowance. XD Haha.

The total savings that I have for cosplay is ... around 2k, I think. And that 2k was already used for my Isaak wig.. XD So if ever I'm going to have another costume to be tailored/made, I need to save again. And saving means less Starbucks coffee, more kurakot, and "lighter" snacks/lunch. XD

Meh... The forum that I'm in is planning for a major group cosplay with 30+ characters, and I am part of this group o.o; Even if I'm already "enthusiastic" about my character, I'm not really "enthusiastic" about the target month, which is January >.> and as far as I know, we'd be having our midterm exams this January. @.@ So I'm kinda hesitant about cosplaying for January.. since I really need to do good with my exams, considering that my current course (Business Admin.) is a lot more easier... and on top of that, my parents expect line of 9s and no line of 8s. ~_~" So even if I go cosplaying in this group, it is not certain that I'd be able to go to the event on January... (note to Kana: please don't kill me XD) So...I guess, back-out-ing would be the best decision. ~_~ Oh well.

Hmm. It seems that this post is... "everything cosplay". o_o I guess I'm too amused again, lol.

Oh well, I guess I can't be blamed since my mind has been on vacation for 4 days! XD And speaking of holidays, I need to save up for presents, too. Ugh. ~_~ I guess what I said is true, Christmas is a time of "poverty" for me. XD Luckily, I already have my gift for my dad. As for my mom, I already bought her a gift but I think it's too... cheap? But I think it's useful so I bought it and had it gift-wrapped >.> Maybe that would really be my gift for her, unless I find something a bit more okay (and unless I have additional cash to buy it). ~__~"

Speaking of holidays, I need to change my layout soon. XD I want a VK or a TB Christmas layout, whee. Or maybe Ouran, or maybe Shadow Skill (yes, I'm feeling nostalgic lately XD)... But I'm too lazy, lol. ~_~" Maybe next time >.> Oh well.

...which reminds me, I think I'm going to get murdered by Noelle (Mitchie's friend) since I wasn't able to go to her debut yesterday.. XD Then again, I don't have any decent clothing for a "fairy-themed" debut unless I'd be permitted to wear my Return Card costume there... and I don't have the invitation. >.> I waited for the invitation since Monday, and I haven't received it ~_~ And there are no classes last Thursday and Friday, so...... >.> But I guess I still feel that I should give her gift, which is a book (I'm included in the 18 books thingy, I think). ~_~

Bah~ whatever. >.> That's all for now, bye~

It's just one of those days...

2006-11-19T11:06:00.000+08:00

[mood | guilty]
[music | Gundam Seed - Rey Za Burrel: Omokage]

I can't help but think that I must be one of those people who seem to annoy her parents a lot. I should be in the Guiness records. lol.

Anyway.... *sigh* it's just one of those days again. First, I made my dad angry last night, and now it's my mom. So yeah, they're both mad at me right now... heh.

As for my dad, I know it's my fault. But I'm still somewhat afraid to approach him up to now. And as for my mom, I dunno. I guess she was mad because of the way I answered her awhile ago. I guess I'm still too depressed to care about anything, not even the fight between Pacquiao and Morales that would be aired later on TV. So... yeah.

Call me weird but I'm wearing my CCS Costume right now~ I just felt like wearing it since... meh. The day 2 of the Hero con is today and our cosplay group got into the top 5... Unfortunately, due to what happened last night, I won't be able to go today. Heck, even if nothing happened last night, I still even doubt that I'd be able to go anyway since my dad will NOT leave the house today since he wanted to watch the freaking fight between Pacquiao and Morales... Knowing my dad, he'd be mad if he won't be able to watch it.

I was thinking of bringing my dad along to the Hero con today (they said that they'd be airing the fight of Pacquiao and Morales during the event too), but if he'd be there, then I would have a problem since he'd be watching my every move. And then he'll be all like, "Stop [insert what I'm doing here]. You look like a [insert comparison here]." =____= Then again, I won't be going to the Hero con today, anyway.

I guess I'm just too emotional these days. But I can't help it, cosplaying is one of the few things that make me happy. And it's so .. mortifying.. to see myself not in the event since... it's............ T___T *cries*

I hate my life. -_-

So I guess I won't be doing much today other than homework, crying, walking around the house in costume, avoiding contact with my parents while I'm in the house, and of course, watch the freaking fight between Pacquiao and Morales. I think the whole country's going to stop what they're doing just to watch this fight... *shrugs* It's not that I'm anti-Pacquiao/Pacman, I support him, but I'm just too depressed to care about anything right now. I just hope he'd win though.

I really want to go to the event today... nyah... *sighs and rolls over the bed in costume* After all we already went to church... and stuff... *sigh* I want to go, even if it's just for a while...

..can someone get me a taxi? I have money. I really want to go, argh. *rolls over again*

And. I'm. So. Bored.

Argh. I really hate my life...

Uhhh.... insert random Ouran quote here

2006-11-15T22:00:00.000+08:00

[mood | tired =_=]
[music | none at the moment]

It's been a while since I last updated my blog (again). ~_~"

Meh... I dunno what to say, really. I was supposed to update last week but I was too busy, although I got to type a "draft" for my post last week but I didn't have much time to finish what I was talking about there... so I just deleted it since I lost the motivation to continue sharing about it. XD

So yeah, I've been away for too long. XD Other than the reasons which are obviously related to school, erm... we had to deal with other stuff too. Erm~ my grandmother died last Friday (Nov. 10), and since then I wasn't able to go online so much. ~_~" Well we were busy for the weekend since we had to prepare for her funeral and stuff.. and we also had to do this lamay thingy (I kinda lacked a lot of sleep for a few days since I had to do it as well).. I dunno how to explain it but I think it's a tradition here in our country. It's something like keeping yourself awake for many hours as you "guard" the coffin or something. o_O

Anyway, we had her body buried last Monday and I think I was kinda haunted during that day (in the afternoon, as I went to school, I mean.)... well my head hurt and my ears felt cold. o.o I dunno, it's either I was haunted or I was just lacking too much sleep. =_="

I should be sleeping now, too. lol.

Gomen but I don't really feel like updating much today. I'm feeling lazy~

And I have new problems again, since my dad allowed me to go to the Hero Convention this coming Saturday. I'm not complaining, I'm kinda happy since at least I get to go (even if I'm only allowed to stay up to 5pm). But since I'm cosplaying again and I'm joining my forum's cosplay group... I dunno. XD I'm not really ready... but... oh well.

We'll just see.................. what will happen. XD

But I have a feeling that this *cough* Return Card will scatter around the stage. XD And I might be doing much, much, worse than my NCC appearance o.o;; Note: The event this Saturday will be on TV as well, I think.

Ah well. Whatever. XD I'm going to sleep now~ goodnight.

P.S.: I'm addicted to Ouran now. XD~~~ Kinda late, but what the heck, it's just now that I got to watch the whole series. XD I still can't choose who'd be my "fave" host, but I think it's Tamaki.. or maybe Kyouya, or the twins... AHHHH~ whatever. XD

Time flies...

2006-11-04T14:29:00.000+08:00

[mood | melancholy]
[music | Gackt - Tsuki no Uta]

Time flies, indeed... it's been a few days, and now it's almost time to return to school for the second semester.

Meh... so I wasn't able to update much for the semestral break but what the heck. XD I've been busy with other stuff. Although, sadly, I rarely got to draw.

So yeah... I was able to enroll myself yesterday (despite the rule that irregular students are to enroll on Nov. 4, which is today) thanks to my mom's persistence. And yeah, I'm already in a new course now. ^^"

I just hope I'd do better this semester, considering that the course I transferred to is much much easier than Accountancy. And my mom said I need to study harder since my new course doesn't offer much employment (well, that's what they said anyway).

*sigh* I dunno. I'm feeling depressed today ._. well kinda, but I dunno. Maybe I'm just feeling lazy. My mom told me that we'd be going out later to buy some shoes and a new bag (for school, duh), and maybe some other stuff. I dunno.

And my friends from the Ichi forum said that we might be cosplaying on the PSICOM Convention (Nov. 26) instead of the Hero Convention (Nov. 18-19). ~_~ Some of the group members can't come on the 18th since they have classes and stuff. I dunno, the only thing that I'm worried about is this: will my parents allow me to go or not?

I know my role in the group isn't really a major one (I'm just a Clow Card, lol) but I'd feel bad if I won't be able to go since.. the costume would be wasted. Other than that, all the efforts that me and some friends had to go through would likewise be wasted. (Imagine, Carla even went to the mall near our school just to take my measurement since that's the only place where I can "hide" -_-) meh.

Oh well.

As others would say, "bahala na..." XD But I really hope I could go. And at the same time, I hope I'd do better this sem.

So it's like nerd mode + cosplayer mode. Ahahaha~ *whacked*

Oh well. Bye for now, hope to update again sometime in the [bleak] future.

Gaaaaah.

2006-10-27T22:33:00.000+08:00

[mood | sick]
[music | news on TV]

Meh. It's been AGES since I last updated >.>" There were a lot of stuff that happened, most of which are "issues" with my parents (as usual). There are also some issues regarding my shifting of courses... and, also some other stuff. Like my cosplay plans that are just... impossible dreams. XD

'Tis going to be a short update, because I'm feeling lazy and I'm not really in the mood.

My throat's kinda "itchy", I dunno, I feel weird. I think I'm having colds now. Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

And to think that I'm going to be one of the judges in our subdivision's trick or treat event (yes, all because of cosplay, LOL). I'm going to put on some heavy make up, so I'll look really dead (I'm using my Isaak costume, again)... but the problem is, I think I have colds now, so runny nose means I need more tissue and... oh well.

My mom's nagging at me now, so maybe next time. Bye -_-

Semestral break.. finally.

2006-10-17T22:03:00.000+08:00

[mood | pensive]
[music | Gundam Seed - Life Goes On]

Finally, it's our semestral break. It's almost like I've been waiting for 10 years before this very day... but now that it's here, I don't feel like I'm actually taking my semestral break. o_O It's not that I want to go to school now or anything, but I dunno.

Maybe because I wasn't really studying hard for this semester. Because if I was really studying hard, then I would've been more enthusiastic about the semestral break. But then again.... oh nevermind.

I got into a new fandom too~ Vampire Knight manga, woot XDDDDD I got to download the manga in the net shop right after my last exam, and I had it burned into a CD. So yeah~ I'm addicted. But I can't help it, the story keeps drawing me in. And call me demanding but I really want more. It's just like a vampire who says, "I don't think I'll be able to endure living off blood tablets for much longer, her blood was so delicious..."

And in this case...
"blood tablets" = the Vampire Knight manga scans that I have read
"her blood" = the scans/chapters that I haven't downloaded yet

Meh~ I'm addicted. XD Woot.

Anyway... I just thought of posting, I had a lot of ideas in mind awhile ago but for some reason they all vanished. Oh well~

And on a random note, there really are times wherein I doubt that I'd be able to join the CCS Skit practice/Photoshoot/Cosplay. Meh. Even if my cape&hood is in progress... I can't help but think that I might not be allowed or something like that. *sigh*

I live a miserable life. =_=

Of short updates and Paradise Kiss. =_=

2006-10-14T20:59:00.000+08:00

[mood | blah]
[music | Honey & Clover - Waltz (on TV XD)]

Meh. Final exams suck. =_=
Anyway, just a little more and the first semester's overrrrrrrr.

Just a little more and I'm going to have some decent sleep~!!!!

Meh~ short update. Nothing special is happening much these days.

On a side note.. I finished watching the anime of Paradise Kiss (XD Paradise Kiss marathon on vcd, after I watched the Paradise Kiss replay on Animax this afternoon). Call me weird but I cried at some scenes o.O Like during the part when Yukari went back to her home (after running away). I started crying after Yukari said "if you do love me, then listen to me" to her mom. I dunno, I just cried at that moment... XD

Anyway, yeah... I was really crying at some scenes, and especially at the last scene/episode. Meh.. it was so touching =_=" And at times like these, I can't help but think, am I really a hopeless romantic? XD

Meh. Anyway, I'm gonna sleep now, my eyes were tired watching (and crying). Haha. XD Although I must say, it was really a good cry. lol.

But I must say (too), some of the charas did a lot of bed scenes. XD *coughcough* Woot. *runs*

Ah, irony. short post =_=

2006-10-03T22:50:00.000+08:00

[mood | tired]
[music | Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicle - Aikoi]

Meh~ long time no update. XD Again. Haha~ we've been so busy these days.. we'll be having our final exams next week, gwaaah. XD Anyway~ a lot has happened since my last update, although I'm not really in the mood to list them all down right now. ^^; I'm too tired, I want to sleep. But we still have a lot of stuff to do~ =_=

And

About the "happenings", I'll update about them next time. And maybe I'll try listing them down by number. lol. XD But I'll do it next time because my mom's nagging at me now.

Jeez, it was just now that I got to access the internet and she's already like "And what are you doing?" =___= It's kinda ironic, just as I felt like updating awhile ago, she came into the room and yeah, I lost my mood.

That's why I always end up doing "unimportant" stuff first before homework. Because when I finish my homework, my mom would be all like "Okay, let's sleep. Turn off that computer now, you're already done with homework anyway". =_______=

I hate my life. XD

Okay enough ranting, I need to go. *groans*

P.S. To Jeddy, Sakura, Jeni?, Nicole and some other friends: Are you interested with the December event? I meant Vanitea, since it's a goth tea party and the venue's not really far.. ~_~ *random*

Okay, I'm off!

Now erasing field operative blahblah as friend blahblahblah...

2006-09-26T22:43:00.000+08:00

[mood | sleepy]
[music | Honey & Clover II - Nakayoshi]

Hmm. It's been a while since I last updated, although I must say that this week is indeed not a good week. XD Well, should I say, last week wasn't really a good week. But then again, this week doesn't seem to be a good week either, but last week was much, much, worse. XD

Well~ it started last Friday, our "self-appointed leader" for our Dancing/P.E. group suddenly told us that we would begin practicing for the performance in Dancing/P.E... I wasn't really against it since I knew that we only have a few days to go.

So yeah, she told us to eat and stuff, although we (me, Mitchie and Sunshine) weren't really able to eat lunch since it was still kinda early. So the three of us just ate snacks and we also took some beverages.

Meh~ when we got back we started with the practice, and for some reason, this leader was really annoying. I dunno, it's like she became some sort of dictatorial leader or something. And she kept yelling/scolding us. What should she expect? We're not all good in dancing like she is. =_="

We started at around 10am with the practice (I'm not really sure but it's around that time) and we ended at almost 2 or 3, I think. I wasn't really feeling good by that time since I'm too hungry, since I wasn't able to eat lunch (I ate only snacks, remember?).

So that's Strike 1 for her. Now, on to Strike two. XD

We had our Youth Camp last Saturday-Sunday (we slept over at school during Saturday and we got to go home on Sunday morning). My parents allowed me to stay overnight but they told me to cover my whole body with Off Lotion (that mosquito repellent). XD

Well~ the Youth Camp was okay, although I must say that the Youth Camp last year was better, and it was more enjoyable. Anyway, I wasn't able to get any decent sleep (I got to sleep for 1 hour, but I don't think that was a "deep" sleep) for this year's Youth Camp, and I was sooooooooo tired by the time we got back to school from that darn "Pilgrimage Walk" and I was half-awake, half-asleep during the morning ^^"

So what made that leader have her Strike 2 in the Youth Camp? Simple.
1) She suddenly texted all of my classmates (not all, but most of them, especially those who were using a SunCell simcard) to tell us, the group, that we would have a practice at 7am on Sunday
2) She didn't attend the Youth Camp so she doesn't know the pain we went through. And considering that we're supposed to have the damn practice at 7am, I'm pretty sure that we (those who attended) would be dead.
3) SHE RUINED MY MORNING BECAUSE OF THAT DARN TEXT MESSAGE. Like as if I'd attend the practice, I need to catch up on some sleep dammit!

*ahem* Okay, nevermind.

As for the strike 3... I dunno how to explain it. But I feel like I've been scammed or something.

Well she told us that each member of the group would give 500 pesos for the costume-buying thingy. She said that she'd go and stuff, so yeah... I was expecting to get some change since I'm just a "guy" for the dance and my costume is around 250 pesos.

And boy I was surprised yesterday when she suddenly told us that we still needed to give 100 pesos. o.O I was like "huh? wtf."

Meh~~ I got into a lot of drama bacause of this, too. XD Well I tried airing out my complaint because it's just not fair (I'm paying 600 and I'm only getting something worth 250?)... and I got yelled at in return.

But being the wimp (new word! thanks Wolfram. LOL) that I am, I cried because I was so mad that.. that. I was so mad and frustrated that's why I cried =_=" *hides under Radu's shoe*

I tried complaining but I guess it's no use. Although I must say, that "leader" is quite.. I dunno how to describe it.. inconsiderate. Meh, oh well.

Hmm, I just remembered that it's the leader's bday this 27th (Thursday). Maybe I'll give her nothing. Or maybe a card, or maybe nothing. Haha. She deserves it anyway, she ticked me off this time, and I'm not forgiving her... yet. *smiles*

Meh.

I'm just hoping that I'm not alone in this fight. >_>" But there are some times wherein I can feel that there's something fishy going on in the group.. but then again, maybe it's just me. XD After all, I'm paranoid, and most people that I know hate me.

Heck, I think I live to be hated. ~_~" *sigh*

Okay, here I go again, angsting. XD Oh well.
I'm gonna sleep now. Bye~

Of undue influence and expensive jogging pants...

2006-09-20T19:40:00.000+08:00

[mood | apathetic]
[music | Loveless - Michiyuki]

"There is Undue Influence when a person takes improper advantage of his power over the will of another, depriving the latter of a reasonable freedom of choice."

In my case, "There is Undue Influence in Meira's situation when her parents takes improper advantage of their parental power over her will, hence depriving Meira of a reasonable freedom of choice."

Meh, okay, I'm addicted to our Obligations and Contracts (Law) subject. o.O But that's what I learned, sooo~

....

Okay, so much for doing the loooooooong Accounting homework. Oh well, it's going to be submitted next week anyway... so I guess I still have time. Although I hope I'll find some time since we're having our Youth Camp this Saturday, although I won't be staying overnight (I'll be fetched at around 8pm =_= I dunno if they'd still bring me to school on the next day or not, though).

Anyway, today was rather crappy. Crappy, I say..!!! I dunno, I wasn't really in the mood to do much at all, so during Financial Management I just stared at the blackboard and copied notes [I didn't even try computing for those examples and exercises]... and as for Marketing, I just stared at the powerpoint that our professor made. Fortunately, we didn't have any quiz today, however we'll be having some quizzes next next meeting. I think. Oh well.

...

Moving on to the rant of the day, which is about JOGGING PANTS. Pffft.

...

Warning: Over-redundancy of the words "jogging pants" ahead.

My parents and I had lunch at the mall near school (after class, duh), and we did a little window shopping for some jogging pants. o_O Yep, jogging pants, for the Youth Camp. My mom insisted on buying a pair of jogging pants (Adidas, omg) because she wanted me to look "okay" during the Youth Camp. But I was kinda hesitant to buy because I know that Adidas products are quite expensive. Heck, I even saw the tag price of those jogging pants that she wanted for me =_=" That's like 2k PhP. Omg. I wouldn't be happy at all if my mom buys those expensive jogging pants for me, because it's too expensive. It's already like buying the "name", and not the "product". After all, they're just jogging pants, and for me, buying Adidas jogging pants wouldn't matter much because it's still a pair of jogging pants and they're clothes that are used to be worn >.> So what's the difference? The brand? >.> Pffft.

Besides, the Youth Camp's just a camping activity, so why should I even bother buying new, and most of all, EXPENSIVE pants? It's not required now, is it? So why should I even buy?

It's not that I'm cost-cutting or anything, I know I splurge a lot on "other" expenses, but 2k PhP for ONE pair of jogging pants is too much. Besides, I'd rather spend 2k PhP on costumes because it's not everyday you get to have a costume.

So there, I STRONGLY declined my mom's "offer". And because of it, she told me that we'll be going to another mall to check out more jogging pants =_="

Soon enough, we got there, and we started looking around too. We found a bunch of jogging pants (which are cheaper than that Adidas one) however most of the pants weren't too good. My mom got to buy me a t-shirt though, and she said I'll be using it for the Youth Camp... and then she added that all we needed at that time is to find some good jogging pants to buy.

We looked around but to no avail, and eventually my mom got enthusiastic again when she saw the Adidas products in the mall =_="" She saw ANOTHER pair of Adidas jogging pants and she really wanted to buy me those. I took a look at the tag price, it's still expensive, but it's KINDA cheaper than the pair of jogging pants that we saw at the mall near school. Anyway, I did nothing but decline, but she kept persuading me. It was really annoying, because it was almost like she wasn't listening that I've been saying. We WASTED a few minutes doing that, and we even looked stupid in front of the sales staff... and then my mom suddenly brought out her phone and called my dad who was quite nearby. She was like, "Can you come here for a minute? Your daughter's being hard-headed again."

I was afraid, since my dad's coming over, but I didn't really want to buy those jogging pants. It's too expensive. I'd really prefer something a bit cheaper because, what would I get if I buy an expensive pair of jogging pants? So can someone please enlighten me, WHAT WILL I GET IF I BUY A CHEAP PAIR OF JOGGING PANTS? WHAT WOULD BE THE DIFFERENCE IF I BUY AN EXPENSIVE PAIR? HUH? HUH?!?!?!!!

So after a few minutes of declining (on my part) and threatening AND scolding (on their part), that pair of Adidas jogging pants was bought, unfortunately. By the time the pants were bought, I was totally humiliated, and I was slightly crying (and imagine that, the sales staff were even STARING at my miserable state... talk about mall drama). I know I looked weird because normally, I'd be thankful for the pants, but I wasn't. Because I was too bothered by its price since it's so expensive.

I guess I DID have some shortcomings for this little argument, but I dunno. I was too bothered.

So now that I have a NEW pair of EXPENSIVE pants, what will happen now? Will my grades go up? Will my sleep be more comfortable?

...

Indeed, this is not really a good week...

...

*runs back to the corner of the room and angsts*

According to the quizzy, I live a miserable life.

2006-09-18T20:55:00.000+08:00

[mood | groggy]
[music | Honey & Clover - Mistake]

Stolen off Talia's bloggy (with the new url)~ I'm not linking her new url here for security reasons. XD *salutes*

And I think all that crying made me sleepy/groggy or something o_O Haha. I wanna sleep but I still have stuff to do. *coughcoughartforexhibitcough*

Other than that~ I want to enjoy my time tonight since we don't have any assignment in Accounting XD

So~ here we go with the quizzy!

...

[X] You know someone that cares about you.
[ ] You have a boyfriend/ girlfriend/ fiancee/husband/ wife.
[X] You have your own room
[X] You own a cell phone.
[X] You have an ipod/ mp3 player.
[X] Your parents are still married.
[ ] You have more than 2 best friends.
T O T A L: 5

[X] You dress how you want to. (except in school when there's the uniforms)
[X] You hang out with friends more than once a week. (because the mall is just near the school, lol)
[X] There is a computer and laptop in your house. (computer only, no laptop XD)
[X] You have never been beaten up. (but if it's emotionally, that's another case)
[ ] You never cry more than twice a month.
[X] You are allowed to listen to the music you want to.
[X] Your room is big enough for you.
[ ] People don't use you for something you have.
[ ] You have been to a concert.
[ ] You laugh more than twice a day.
T O T A L: 6

[X] You have over 50 friends on Friendster.
[ ] You have pictures on myspace.
[ ] Your parents let you have a Friendster. (I didn't ask them about this. =.=)
[ ] You have no problem in your studies.
[X] You collect something normal. (scented ballpens are normal, right?)
[ ] People don't make fun of you to be mean.
[ ] You look foward to going to school.
[ ] You don't wish you were someone else.
[X] You do something after school at home/outside.
[ ] You always pass ALL the subjects in exams.
T O T A L: 3

[ ] You own a car.
[ ] You usually don't fight with your parents.
[ ] You are happy with your appearance/looks.
[ ] You aren't self-conscious at all.
[X] You have friends.
[ ] Your parents working salary monthly is more than $4000.
[X] You know your parents care and love you.
T O T A L: 2

[ ] You know what is going on in the world.
[ ] You care about so many people.
[ ] You are happy with your life.
[X] You usually aren't sick.
[X] You know more than one language. (English + Filipino + Japanese, yes yes)
[X] You have a screen name.
[X] You've gotten awards/prizes/trophies before.
[X] You know the words to more than 5 songs.
[ ] You dont have any enemies at all.
[ ] You are Happy that you're living.
T O T A L: 5

Now count the number and multiply by 2.
21 x 2 = 42

A score below 50 means I live a miserable life, right? If it is, then I'm miserable. 8DD *runs*

It's just one of those times...

2006-09-18T19:01:00.000+08:00

[mood | frustrated]
[music | Meine Leibe Weider - Akatsuki]

...when I feel like crying because I'm so frustrated. But then again, I cried awhile ago, but I guess my tears have run dry now.

First of all, my dad *kinda* scolded me awhile ago for coming out of school late. Our dismissal was at 3:30 pm, and I went out at around 3:45 pm... and of course, knowing my dad, he was getting impatient.

So yeah, he was like "Where have you been?" when I embarked on the car.. well, I was honest enough to say that "I was delayed since we had to get a copy of the Entrep lesson on the computer". I thought he was okay with it, then he kinda got silent all of a sudden. I was wondering if I said something wrong, then my dad broke my reverie when he suddenly said "And I thought you don't have Computer classes anymore?"

Of course, I twitched, because I thought he understood what I said already =_=" So I tried keeping my cool and tried to EXPLAIN to him that the LESSON was IN the COMPUTER. It seemed that my words didn't reach him though, but he was quiet, which in turn troubled me.

So we were "quiet" for some time during the trip home 'till he stopped over at Starbucks to buy me some frappuchino. I started crying my heart out when he disembarked from the car, but I was able to wipe my tears just in time before he got back.

Meh, I know I should understand that my dad's getting old, but I just can't help but feel frustrated because I wasn't easily understood.

Oh well.

Now, on to the main frustration of the night...

...*drumroll*

...*sound of cymbals clanging*

TADAAA!!! ...TERRANS.

Well, it's not the first time that I got frustrated because of those terrans, but it really went overboard this time, I guess, because I even slept late for that powerpoint thingy and all of a sudden, those darn terrans tell me that they did not have the multimedia room reserved...

Argh.

I don't really mind "wasted efforts", but this time, it's really annoying. Besides, we were given TWO chances, and they didn't even do their job of having the multimedia room reserved.

Oh well.....

And it's not even summer yet. XD

2006-09-17T18:30:00.000+08:00

[mood | working]
[music | Onegai Teacher - Shooting Star]

And I was supposed to be working on my Entrepreneurship assignment. XD

'Tis going to be a short post, I promise.

Nothing much, really. It's just that I noticed that it's been so hot lately. It's already summer~ and I'm expecting the temperature to be a bit cooler since the "-BER" months are already here, which means Christmas is near.

-BER months = symbol that December is near
December = Christmas
Christmas = cool season.

But for some reason... the temperature's still.. well, high. IT'S SO HOT. XD I even saw some of my friends on YM having stat messages like "BRB, Taking a bath #25165731. It's so hot." XD I assume they've been taking a bath for so many times because it's hot?

The aircon is on, but it's still hot.. X_X

And it's not even summer yet.

Oh well~ back to work.

Of AXN nostalgia and incoming dancing practicals.

2006-09-17T17:39:00.000+08:00

[mood | rushed]
[music | Cyber Team in Akihabara - Birth]

Haha. Nostalgia~ XD

I came across the anime title "Cyber Team in Akihabara" while surfing around gendou.com... and well, I remembered the good ol' days when I was watching AXN. XD

Too bad they removed the anime off their program list, I enjoyed watching subbed anime from that channel XD Oh well.

Anyway~ nothing much happened these days, except last Friday (when I got to meet some of the peeps from the forum I'm in) and yesterday, which is Saturday (wherein I got to go to the debut of my coffeemate and friend, Mitchie). XD

And now~ it's back to the old routine. =_= School sucks. XD I wish it's our sembreak already, I'm so excited to do that hourglass. LOL

But really =___= I wish it's all over.

I really want to have some decent sleep. XD

And gawd, it's our Dancing practical test tomorrow O_O And I don't have any idea on how to do the steps for this can-balancing dance. =_= I had my mom remove some pebbles from the cans that I'm using (so they won't be that heavy)... and I hope the weight is just right so it won't fall off my head XD And I hope that if ever it falls, it won't scatter any pebbles >.> Because the can (that my friend Mitchie is using) scattered some rocks on the "dance floor" when it fell. XD

Meh.

I don't know what to do tomorrow, and it's kinda sad that our practical test tomorrow would be an individual test and NOT a group test =_="

My grade in Dancing was always "pulled up" because of the group dancing thingies, and now I think my line of 9 grade will decrease because of the individual dancing thingies. =___="

Ah well...

It seems that I'm going to hear a lot of "fireworks" again tomorrow. XD (the falling cans sound like small fireworks popping XD) Or maybe not, if my classmates would really balance their cans on their heads o_O

But I really doubt that I'd get a good grade in the practical test tomorrow =_= Because:
1) I dunno the steps
2) I really dunno how to balance the can on my head
3) It's that time of the month and my speed and strength is reduced by 1/2 (>.> damn)
4) I can't practice properly without the music

Meh.

Good luck to me. *groans and runs off to continue her very very boring Entrepreneurship assignment*

Of wasted efforts and art exhibits.

2006-09-14T21:26:00.000+08:00

[mood | sleepy]
[music | Paradise Kiss - Do You Want To]

And the song for the week award goes to "Do You Want To" from Paradise Kiss; for being in the music thingy for the past 2 or 3 posts!

Okay, my effort for the powerpoint thingy last Wednesday was a waste. I should've slept earlier. But nooo~ they did not have the computer reserved for use. So my effort was wasted.

But then again, we didn't have the report, because I kinda showed "hints" that I was really annoyed. I told them I did a lot of summarizing (because I summarized a lot of stuff, because even if some of my groupmates DID summarize their part, it's not summarized enough). I also told them that I slept really late.

Haha. *smiles*

Anyway~ I was told to stay after Religion class, along with my classmates Tyrone (the only guy in our section) and Barbs/Barbara. I thought we did something silly, so I was kinda scared... but that fear immediately vanished when I saw my drawing (which was an assignment) being handed back to me. I thought the prof wasn't satisfied, but she then told us to enhance our art o_O

I was surprised, and I was still listening to our prof speak... and then eventually I found out that the three of us will have our artworks exhibited in school (I dunno when though)! Woot.

So yeah, I'll be "enhancing" my drawing now... but I think all I need to do is to make the colors darker (since I used colored pencil) and the lines clearer/solid. Meh~

I'll be passing it next Tuesday, though. My hands hurt already. XD

Since I'm feeling lazy to "enhance" my work, I'll go sleep now. I'll review for Financial Management tomorrow, and I'll review for Marketing during the break. XD

I hope I'd be able to answer the Marketing test though. The test has been postponed for SO MANY times already, and that means I've been reviewing for SO MANY times as well. But as of the moment, my mind feels blank. XD

Hmmm.

I think I'm going to sleep now. XD I need to catch up on some sleep, especially that I slept late yesterday. Besides, I need to give my brain a little rest, so I can absorb the formulas for Financial Management tomorrow.

Whee, cramming. XD

Oh well. Bye~~ *runs off to listen to the same song AGAIN*

"Do You Want To" is killing my brain. XD

2006-09-13T16:00:00.000+08:00

[mood | bored]
[music | Paradise Kiss - Do You Want To]

As my friend Zanyuki said, nakakaloko 'tong kantang 'to. XD

I'm so amused with the song right now, and I've been listening to it since last night (well, every time I'm free to listen to music, I mean).

Nyah.

Nothing special happened today~ we just discussed in Financial Management, and we're going to have our quiz this Friday =_=" I hope I'd be able to answer the questions... because usually, even if I know the formula, I won't be able to compute it if the question is altered in some way =_=" Ah well.

And our quiz in Marketing (which was supposed to be today) was postponed yet again. XD I think today's the second time it got postponed... or was it the third? XD Anyway~ I still need to memorize the topic/s in the hand-out that was given... Because I've been given a lot of chances already. XD

Hmmm... for some weird reason, I feel like today's a Saturday. o_O Maybe it's just because we didn't have our Accounting class yesterday so we don't have anything to do.. XD But I'll be busy later since I'm the one who'll be making the powerpoint presentation for our Religion (YES IT'S ALWAYS RELIGION O.O) group report. XD

The problem is, I currently don't have a diskette (where I can place the powerpoint file)... but I guess my mom would be able to buy it later. XD

The only problem now is: how the heck am I going to begin with the presentation?

One of my groupmates did a research this noon at the computer lab in school (since her computer bugged down)... And I'm not really sure, but she said the file/article/whatever that she found was really long. Now I'm wondering, why did I receive a file/article that's really short?

I'm kinda bothered with this, really.

I think she forgot to send me the whole article (since that's the WHOLE report). Or maybe, this article really IS the whole article... but I have a feeling that this is just MY report, and not the GROUP report. Gawd, she said it's long! O__O This is too short, for me at least.

Then again................... I haven't read the file/article yet. XD I just looked at the length. *laughs and gets whacked*

Oh well, it's already past 4pm, so I guess I should start working. =__=

And I could've asked mom to buy me the unlimited call and text prepaid card for my Sun cel.. >_>" (I only asked her to buy the unlimited text) Gwaaah. I think I'll be needing the unlimited-call thingy to call my groupmate/s. =_="

Ah well~ I'll be off now to listen to more "Do You Want To" madness. XD

sings well do ya~ do ya do ya wanna~

2006-09-12T22:13:00.000+08:00

[mood | bouncy]
[music | Paradise Kiss - Do You Want To]

SHORT POST. XDD

Accounting = prof was absent (yay!) =D
Economics = quiz =_=
Religion = watched a movie and made a little show-and-tell of the artwork assignment, wherein I messed up
Speech communication = Mock job interview, and I was the last one to be called =_=

Oh well.

I wanna post, but I don't feel like posting anything sensical.. lol. XD

Oh and Pegasus (check Jeddy's blog for more details) is really annoying. Friend indeed in time of need. Pfft.

And~ Nicole and I made a Vampire Knight deal! =D She likes Zero and Aidou and I like Kaname and Ichijou. That's it. Haha XD (did that even make sense?)

I still need to have some way of downloading the manga (the files are so big, I can't download them here on my house comp). XD I really want to see/read it.. XD

Okay I'm going to sleep now. ~_~

Vehemently crushed . . . ?

2006-09-10T20:14:00.000+08:00

[mood | crushed]
[music | Gundam Seed - Rey Za Burrel: Omokage]

I have said this before, and I'll say it again............ I just HATE getting sermons. Especially if we just came from mass, which makes that another "sermon".

Pfffft. =_=" And I was supposed to work on my Religion assignment (which is a drawing)... but I lost my mood because of that "sermon". And no, it's not the sermon from the mass. Duh.

...So I guess my narrow-mindedness is showing again. Oh well.

*groans*

I know my performance in school's not that good for this semester, and I even got a line of 6 in Accounting as my midterm grade. And now my parents are (as usual) telling me to lay off the comp for a while... and my dad kept talking about dedicating more time to my studies and stuff...

I've heard that line for a lot of times before... but....

I'M REALLY OUT OF MOTIVATION ALREADY, DAMMIT... Only a perfect score will help me this finals, so I can get my grade up to at least 75... but I don't think that's possible. Even if I force myself to study... I dunno, but I really lost hope already. I know I won't make it.

My parents said that they're okay with my shifting of courses, but they are saying that they hate students who shift. So, which is which? And now I can't but feel that they're ashamed of having me as their daughter too. Because I know I did okay when I was in elementary and highschool... but I'm getting worse now that I'm in college.

And now... I dunno, but I feel really crushed. And depressed. And maybe.. suicidal. I can't bear the humiliation, I'm so ashamed of myself. Sorry mom, sorry dad...

*cries*

My mom told me to do my best to raise my grade (for the finals) in Accounting to at least 75... Or maybe drop the Financial Accounting subject, but that will give my transcript a 'FW' (failure due to withdrawal) mark.

My dad said that he preferred the 'FW' mark, but he said I should try to "pursue" the fight 'till the finals. I'd think of the same thing too, I'd rather pursue the finals since, after all, I'm already there... but the only thing that hinders me is this: What if I would still get a line-of-6 grade for the finals? Then I'd be regretful even more for not dropping the subject before the finals...

But... as my mom said, if I'd still get a line of 6 as my grade for the finals, my application for work in the future (since the employer/s would see my transcript of grades and stuff) would be affected. And if I drop the subject now and get a 'FW' mark, my application for work would still be affected. *DIES*

But I really dunno, I can't decide anymore... I know seeing a line of 6 AND a 'FW' mark would not be pleasing for the employer... but... *cries again*

So what should I do now? Should I pursue the subject even if the risk of getting another line of 6 is still there? Or should I drop the subject now even before that happens?

Ayoko na talaga, pwede bang mamatay nalang ako?

......... I really don't have a bright future.

*sulks to a corner and angsts*

(And they're praying the rosary downstairs with some neighbors... and I'm still in the room, crying my heart out. Pfft.)

Spluuuurge. =D

2006-09-09T13:09:00.000+08:00

[mood | lazy]
[music | Angelic Layer - The Starry Sky]

Okay, I wasn't called for the report for our Law subject. Yaaaaay. XD Maybe next week~ but I still have time to enhance my report. Yaaaaaaay.

...

Nothing much really, I felt like posting~ but I dunno what to post. =_=

Anyway, seriously... I AM GETTING FAT. I noticed that my appetite has increased, and I eat more than my normal diet o_O I dunno what's happening, but I assume that it's an effect of the dextrose (when I was in the hospital) or maybe it's because I'm really stressed out.

Meh.

I can't and I DON'T want to get fat ;_; But it's already showing. NUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU~!! I need to take some sort of diet. o.o; But I'm not used to it! WAAAAAAAAAH~~

*runs*

Violence and Intimidation... er, yeah. =_=

2006-09-08T20:33:00.000+08:00

[mood | bored]
[music | R.O.D. TV - Confidence]

So much for buying an internet card~ *sigh*
I wasn't able to enjoy my online time tonight, really. Maybe except for the fact that I got to download a bunch of anime songs [again], I don't find my online time tonight too pleasing. It's not in the sense that I got annoyed, but there wasn't much people online. And if ever they're online, they're busy or something. =_=" Oh well.

We'll be reporting in Law (Obligations and Contracts) tomorrow... and I'm nervous about it since I'm not really good with reporting. But then again, it's a LAW subject, so I should get used to it, I guess.

'Tis just a short post~ I'll update next time.

I need sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep~

And OMG I'm getting fat.

Revenge is mine... hopefully.

2006-09-06T20:51:00.000+08:00

[mood | hopeless XD]
[music | Honey & Clover - Tsuki no Naifu]

I should be reviewing for our Accounting quiz... but what the heck. >_>" I'm too lazy already.

All I'm doing now is... nothing, except continuing my "copy" work for our Accounting assignment. Haha.

Yep, I think I'll get through with this through copying. But I'm pretty sure I won't be able to answer the quizzes decently, since I'm copying without even understanding. o_O

But then again, I think I need to study if I don't want to pull my group down.

After all, our professor just had to be someone with CRAB mentality. He put us in "groups" and we have to look out for each other... and when one gets a low grade, all of the group members will have lower grades too.

I'm not really against the "group" thingy, but I don't really like working in groups. ^^; Besides, of all the things, I don't want to pull others down with my stupidity when it comes to Accounting. >.>" But I guess I have no choice.

I tried giving him a low rating at the faculty evaluation awhile ago, and I filled up the "points to improve" part. I felt relieved when I finished the evaluation, although I don't think that all of our evaluations would be taken seriously by the admin. =_=" So I guess it was a waste... but what the heck. I got to have revenge, anyway. XD

So yeah.. We're having Accounting class again tomorrow, ugh. =_=" If only I can absent myself T_T" Whaa.

And yes, I'll most probably be shifting courses next semester. I got the list of subject offerings for the BSBA (Bachelor of Science in Business Administration) course, and fortunately I have only 5 subjects to catch up with. And fortunately, all of the subjects have 3 units, and they're not as heavy as those in BSA (Bachelor of Science in Accountancy). But I really have to make good grades this time, especially if I want to get in a good Law school. o_o

Some of my classmates are shifting too, although I'm not really sure if they're serious about it or not. o_O But I'm definitely shifting since:
1) I know I won't make it anymore
2) I'm already sick of Accounting class
3) I don't want to wait for me to get kicked out of the program in 3rd year (Sayang ang oras kung ma-kick-out lang ako kung kelan na ako 3rd year.)

Meh.

Okay, I'll be off now, and I'll start reviewing. >.>" Just let me finish talking to my friend. XD

I can't take it anymore~

2006-09-03T20:49:00.000+08:00

[mood | distressed]
[music | Honey & Clover - Waltz]

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH

I WANNA SHIFT COURSES, NOW!!!

Gawd, I know I've been procrastinating today but I'm not really "patient" when it comes to Accounting anymore. =_= I don't want to read about it anymore, I'm getting tired of it.

Blame the midterm grade for my low enthusiasm... but then again, I'm the one who makes my midterm grade. But anyway~

I'm still not done with the long Accounting homework. XD

There are around 70 problems, and I still haven't started O_O I'm still in the theory part of the assignment. Ahahahahahahahahahaha...

...

I'm doomed. Can I die now?

...

Ayoko na talaga, suko na ako.

...

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH *panics and runs*

I'm aliiiiiiiiiive.

2006-08-28T21:09:00.000+08:00

[mood | peaceful]
[music | Honey & Clover - Hachi Gatsu no Serenade]

I'm not really in the mood to post right now. >.>" But I just thought of posting since... it's been a looooong time. xD

I'M BAAAAAAAAAAAAAACK. lol.

So the fever last time was actually a sign of dengue fever ~_~" I was confined in the hospital since Sunday, and I got out on Thursday. So there :3

I guess I'm okay now since I'm .. not that weak, although my mom says that my blood platelet count is still low. So I guess I shouldn't strain myself too much. X3 But how can I? The stress is kicking in already, Accounting class tomorrow AAAAAAAAH~~ *panics*

*ahem*

Anyway, I'm quite happy I got to go online again, I really missed a lot of things. ~_~

Meh.

So I guess that's it, I still need to work on my Gospel reflection. =.=

Fever!! O:

2006-08-18T20:16:00.000+08:00

[mood | sick]
[music | Malice Mizer - Saikai no chi to bara]

Hahahahaha, I didn't realize that I'm really SICK. O:

I really am, so I guess I shouldn't be in front of the computer now. But anyway~

My mom caught me sleeping awhile ago and she was surprised, because I don't normally sleep at this time of the evening. And I did this yesterday too, so she kinda noticed and stuff. Besides, she left this afternoon (for grocery shopping, I think) and I was asleep. She came home and I was asleep. And she said I looked like a drug addict or something like that (I don't mind, because I really look like one after all XD). :3 And when she placed her hand on my forehead, she discovered my illness XD

So yeah. :3 Meh~

I still haven't started reviewing, but I will after I finish my dinner >.> Gawd, I feel like I'm in a hospital. lol kidding xD

And I'm coughing like hell~ lol. *coughcough*

I hope I won't collapse or anything tomorrow. o_O

Yay update =D

2006-08-18T18:34:00.000+08:00

[mood | lazy]
[music | Weiss Kreuz - Sweet Nothing]

I was supposed to post yesterday, but I was feeling too weak and nauseated. >.>" And my eye was feeling hot~ as if it was burning, so I thought that I should lay off the computer at that time XD I immediately slept upon arriving at home, and I woke up at around 9pm to review for Marketing. Meh, my world's slightly "spinning" up to now.. @_@ *falls over* I just dunno what's happening to me. XD Am I sick? o:

And to think that yesterday night, I also perspired in my sleep, as if I was having a high fever. =.=" Gwaah.

But my eye (right eye) is still "burning" up to now. And when I glance at different directions, it starts to hurt. |D Wheee.

*ahem* Anyway...

One more test to go (Law: Obligations and Contracts). And I hope I'll pass, because I feel like I've failed a lot of tests (maybe except for Religion, Speech Communication, and Marketing). =.= Gawd~ I really have a bleak future.

*DIES*

Oh~ and about my decision about shifting from BS Accountancy to BS Business Administration~ I dunno, I'm kinda hesitant because of *cough* terran pressure. Yep, you read that right. *nods* v.V Well I am really positive that I won't make it into third year because I'm really dumb when it comes to analysis and stuff. =.= So yeah...

I want to shift courses next semester so I won't be wasting any time~ But I'm kinda hesitant because only a few (and I mean few) of my classmates are planning to shift. In other words, majority of them will still "pursue" in the "fight". Meh~

I dunno but I really feel that I'm not going to "win" the "fight". So I'm shifting, lol. Yesh I'm a coward~~

But then again, I think I'm just hesitant because... I'm still afraid of being alone =.=" *sigh* That may be the reason, I guess.

Procrastinating as usual~

2006-08-16T17:02:00.000+08:00

[mood | sleepy]
[music | Weiss Kreuz - Last in my Winds]

*yawns* ...and... the song I'm listening to is making me feel more sleepy...

*yawns again, then jerks up*

I'M SUPPOSED TO BE SLEEPING! O.O

Meh. *slouches on her chair*

Anyway...

*ahem* 3 more days of agony before the midterm week ends. Yay. And~ Wah.

Oh wait, I'm saying 'yay' because the agony will soon be over~~ but I'm saying 'wah' because I won't be able to come to this anime event this Saturday. I have a feeling that it's going to be a big event, considering the venue >.> Teatro, I believe, means theater, so I think the venue will be good. ~_~ Anyway~~ I wasn't really planning to cosplay for this event because I've been using my Isaak costume for two consecutive cosplay events already and it's kinda.. well.. you know but I really wanted to go. I want to take pictures of cosplayers and stuff, and also have a good time.

But I won't be able to go since we might be going to you-know-where, and if ever we won't be able to go to you-know-where, my parents won't allow me to go there since the venue's kinda far from our place ~_~ and they might kill me if I go, considering that I've been to anime events for two consecutive times (ToyCon in June, National Cosplay Competition for July).. and I've been neglecting my studies, haha.

*cough* Anyway~

As for the exams... I'm not really confident that I'll pass. >.>" Out of all the tests/exams that I have taken so far.......... I dunno. I sure I'm gonna pass Religion, but for the other three subjects (Entrepreneurship, Accounting and Financial Management)... I think I'm going to fail. X3

I admit, my brain's not at its full capacity~ and I've not been studying reviewing too well. But I'm not really enthusiastic with those subjects =.="

Man, I really have a bleak future. >.>" I need to study harder, especially now that I'm planning to shift courses. Yep yep. *nods* Although I'm not yet 100% serious about it. X3

...Farewell, cosplay. 8D lol. It was fun, even if it was just for a short while :P *sentimental* So I guess that adds up a bit to my memory bank. =w= *whacked*

So yeah. Four more subjects, although I think they're somewhat easier than the first four subjects (except Religion), hehe.

Economics and Speech test/exam tomorrow. I hope I'll do okay, especially in Economics... I remember I flunked one (or was it two?) of my quizzes. X3

Meh~ my back hurts. o_O

Okay I'm gonna take a nap now~ I need to clear my head before I start reviewing.

I'm invisible. Don't tell anyone I'm online (again, lol). XD

2006-08-12T19:11:00.000+08:00

[mood | blah]
[music | Weiss Kreuz - Carnival 2000]

Waiii, classes are over. For now, that is.

...

*panics*

MIDTERMS STARTING ON MONDAY AAAAAHHHH ACCOUNTING AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH NUUUUU~~!!!!

...

I'm doomed.

For the nth time, I'm doomed. Really doomed, I tell you. =.=""

Man, I seriously need to get my hands on some poison. >_>" Or something like that. XD

Question: What will happen if you put silicon (yes, the one with the "do not eat" written on its package) in your drink or food? O:

...Gawd. I'm hopeless. XD But then again, I'm hopeless because I'm too lazy =.=" And I'm not really studying hard. Meh~ XD But I dunno, I don't really feel enthusiastic lately. My friend Jeddy says that I'm just lacking motivation, but meh~ I dunno. I just thought that I might be getting "tired". O_o Well~ considering that I spent my whole life (from nursery to elementary OR highschool, that is) running after academic awards... it can be possible. =.=

And I just realized that in one way or another, I "missed" my childhood days~ because I spent more time on the study table rather than playing outside. And I spent my highschool days studying (and struggling) instead of planning for cosplays and attending anime cons/events. =__=

And here I am now, in college, spending more time on other things. ~_~ Gawd, am I subconsciously getting tired of studying hard?

I..... I... hope not.

But really, I spend more time "lazing around" rather than studying. And my mom gave me yet another sermon/homily/whatever last night about study habits. She says that I should stop listening to music while studying and... meh =.=" I dunno... My mind tends to wander off when it's quiet >_>" But I guess I have no choice but to comply. Even if it's hard to concentrate without music ;__; *wails*

And my mom caught me drawing yesterday. XD It's been a while since I last made a DRAWING (yes, not a DOODLE)... and it was quite coincidental that I came across my RK manga (which I bought from the NCC/Ozinefest event) and saw this page wherein Kenshin has that lethal look. *squees* I just felt like drawing it, so there ~_~" I was almost done with the pencil sketch until my mom barged in to my room (yes, she likes to barge in; she doesn't like to give me any freaking privacy). So yeah~ she was all like "stop spending all of your time drawing useless things". Like wtf. XD

Well~ if it's useless to her, it's useful to me. After all, drawing is an outlet for me because I bear a lot of grudges and I have to pour them out.

But I guess even drawing's a "forbidden" thing here at home now =.=" First it's getting online, and now drawing. What's next, texting? Or maybe staring at the anime posters glued (not really glued, but anyway) to my cabinets?

Hmm... if this keeps up, then it would be.. just a little more before I totally go out of commission insane. XD lol.

Anyway~ I just thought of updating because... I reeaaaaaaaaaalllllyyyyy miss going online. TT_TT

And my dad says that we'll go to you-know-where RIGHT AFTER the midterms (since we won't have classes on Aug. 21), which means I still won't be online despite the fact that our midterms is over. =.=" So I guess I have no choice but to:
1) Listen to my iPod all the way during our stay there
2) Draw like there is no tomorrow (unless I have an artist's block o_O)
3) Bring the DVD player and re-watch Trinity Blood, and DNAngel, RK/Rurouni Kenshin, and the Weiss Kreuz OVA/OAV/whatever
4) Take pictures of random plants and mountains and clouds with my digicam.

...So I guess it'll be pretty boring (since when was the last time I wasn't bored when we stayed there?) =.= ...Unless I get to have a laptop with wireless internet, which will most probably happen in about 100++++ years. =_=

I WANT A LAPTOOOOOPPPPPPP WITH WIRELESS INTERNEEEEEEEETTTT~~ *whines* And a DVD-reader-thingy (so I can watch TB there and make TB music videos), and maybe a good USB-cable-thingy for my iPod. o:

Yes, I'm demanding. XD But it won't hurt to dream about my dream laptop ~_~ Man, staying in you-know-where could've been less boring if I had a laptop~ haha. I want a laptop.

I reaaaaaaally want one. ~_~ Haha.

Oh well.

I guess I'll be ending this post now, I'm not making any sense anymore~ (See the effect of stress and grudges and stuff? No? Nevermind then.) XD Jaa~

Totally hopeless [in Accounting o.O]

2006-08-09T19:36:00.000+08:00

[mood | determined]
[music | Malice Mizer - Miwaku no Roma]

I'm probably the slooooooowwwwweeesst student in BSAccountancy-2, in terms of computing/doing the loooong homework, tonight.

I got home at around 1pm this afternoon, but guess what, I'M STILL AT PROBLEM #9. XDDDDDDDD And to think that our homework has around 40+ problems. And we'll be passing this assignment tomorrow. Woot.

I'm pretty sure that all of my classmates are at problem# 30+ right now. Haha. XD

I shouldn't be updating but I just felt like posting a little something, lol. XD And my mom's downstairs eating dinner, and she'll be back later to supervise my progress~

She says I'm too slow. XD But indeed, I am.
Ah well, I guess I won't be sleeping tonight. Seriously. XD

Weeeeeeeeeeeeee~~ *runs off*

Really losing hope...?

2006-08-07T22:02:00.000+08:00

[mood | listless]
[music | Ouran High School Host Club - Sakura Kiss (Strings version)]

Short update [again] before I go offline (to continue my Accounting homework).

...=_=;; Man.. I'm doomed. For life~

I know I should do my best and all~ but I have this feeling that all my efforts are in vain. I dunno, I just feel it, I think I'm not really fit to be an Accounting student.

Waaah~ I really need motivation.

I'm still stuck at the #1 problem, gawd. Now I'm starting to doubt if I'd be able to finish all 40 problems before Thursday... I need to finish all of this because all of my "incomplete" assignments are already piling up. God knows how many assignments have the "incomplete" marks on them.. @_@

I really dunno, it seems that I am more enthusiastic about other subjects *coughcoughreligioncough* =__=

Now I kept on thinking, why does Law have to require a pre-Law course? T~T

And why did I choose Accounting to be my pre-Law course? Is it because I just wanted to avoid Political Science (because of Chemistry?)? o_O Gwaaaah. *gags*

Gawd.. I really have a bleak future.. I'm so ashamed. ~_~" *hides*

Maybe suicide will do the trick. But I don't want to die yet, I still have a lot of cosplay plans (yes, that's the only thing that keeps me going these days).. =.=

Of P.E. uniforms and other cosplay raves/rants/whatever. xD

2006-08-07T17:57:00.000+08:00

[mood | nauseated]
[music | Ouran High School Host Club - Guilty Beauty Love]

Gawd. My world's spinning. XD I think I'm having some sort of headache... and I think it's because of our class awhile ago ~_~" Meh. Entrepreneurship really bores me. And time seems to slow down every time we have that class =.=" And it's really awkward since I'm sitting RIGHT IN FRONT of the teacher's table, wherein our dear professor is located. So yeah =.=

But I still have the guts to use my cellphone in front of her. XD Well I'm hiding it, but I think she already knows. XD But what the heck~ I'm not the only one who's using her cellphone in the front row anyway. Besides, my mom's constantly texting me, so I need to reply ~_~ *coughcough*

Oh well. XD I just hope this little headache will wear off after being exposed to computer radiation and after drinking some coffee. I need to start on my Accounting assignment later. Gawd, 40+ problems. Haha, I'm still at number 1. =.= And to think we're going to submit it this Thursday. XD~

Oh and I got another "offense" today. XD It's not really an offense but the school security guard made me write my name on the violation-thingy logbook. And guess what it's about. It's about the damned P.E. uniform again!!! *snorts*

I dunno but it seems that I always get into trouble regarding P.E. uniforms =.=" Or maybe it's just because my school is too ... too... I dunno the English term for it. Maarte, I guess. XD So yeah~ it went like this.

Me: *walks into school gate in P.E. uniform*
Guard: Hold it. *blocks the way*
Me: o_O *puzzled* Why?
Guard: Why are you in P.E. uniform?
Me: o____O *even more puzzled* Because my first subject for today is P.E.?
Guard: Well you can't enter the campus in P.E. uniform now. ^_^ ... And did you bring your school uniform?
Me: ............ Whaaa? Since when? ... *shows the guard her paper bag containing school uniform and then the guard checks the bag*
Guard: Since Friday. ^_^
Me: o_o ...I.........We... weren't informed.
Guard: I see. *brings out logbook* Well anyway I'll let it go this time. Just write your name here... *points to the part of the logbook and offers a ballpen*
Me: =___= *takes the ballpen and gapes for a bit upon seeing the names of some of her classmates in the logbook, then signs/writes*
Guard: Make sure you come in school uniform next time okay?
Me: Yeeees~ =.= *walks off*

So that's about it. XD Meh, it's ironic, just as I'm in college, that's the time wherein I get some bad "records". Haha. Oh well~ that's life. At least I should be happy because my parents aren't mad about it. Haha. XD Besides, I'm not alone. I saw my classmates' names on the logbook too.. so I guess a lot of us really weren't informed. Oh well.

And btw~ I saw the NCC/Ozinefest special on tv last Saturday. They featured the top 100 (yes, one by one, for about 5 seconds per entry, I think) Haha, I looked weird. But then again, I should look weird~ Or should I say... I should look like a corpse, since I'm cosplaying Isaak after all. XD Ah well.. at least I appeared for just a short while. XD~ I'm happy because I got to see some people who I got acquainted with XD Although I was quite disappointed because they didn't air all the group cosplay skits T~T I was hoping to see the GSD group cosplayers' skit since I was in the comfort room when they were performing. XD;

On a random note, my friends are really enthusiastic about their cosplay. Jeni and Nicole have saved up some money already, and Nicole's really enthusiastic about Helga's hairbuns of doom. XD Woot. Good luck Nicole~ ^O^ I hope your costumes would be done soon. I can't wait to have the photoshoot of doom with you. XD I just hope I'd be available on December, though. o_O

Maa~ it's still quite farrrr awayyyy~ So I guess I need to study first. XD; And I reaaaaaaaaaallllyyyy need to save up for the Isaak wig. I know the competition's already over but I just want to complete the costume XD *whacked*

*ahem*

Generally~ my weekend was okay, I got to go online for *cough* non-academic reasons. It's been a while since I did that. ~_~" But then again, because of what I did, I wasn't able to do anything productive (regarding homework). I got to finish a bit of my Religion homework, though (since it's all research work, and obviously when I say research, it's getting online). XD All I need now is the Gospel reflection paper [as usual].

I guess we won't be doing much tonight except for the looooooooong Accounting homework, and also the Gospel reflection... Although I hope I'd be able to put something decent in there, because I slept through the homily yesterday. How good of me. *sarcastic* XD Well I was tired, I guess. But I think that's not a good excuse. XD; *whacks herself*

Nyah~ okay enough blogging. It's already past 6! O.O My, my~ time flies. XD;

Can't think of a title... =____=

2006-08-03T20:07:00.000+08:00

[mood | distressed]
[music | High and Mighty Color - Days]

Meh~ life has been SOOO busy since July 31 (which is after the Ozinefest/NCC). o_O Gawd. I think I'm getting crazy, I noticed that I kept STARING at things as I walk around (in school, or in the mall). Other than that, my eyebaggage got bigger, and... darker, lol. I look like a walking dead magician in school uniform drug addict or something. =_=" The stress is getting on to me, I guess.

I rarely get to go online (and get to update my blog, hence no outlet T_T) since my parents tell me to spend my time studying, and my only hope of getting online is research. Although it really IS research, no "peeking" on the sites I usually visit, since my parents usually stay in my room to watch tv (even if they have their own tv downstairs o_O)... so yeah. I can't let them see me doing something else. =_=

I miss going online, but I guess I need to sacrifice (riiight).

Our professor in Marketing told us that he won't be able to attend class tomorrow, so that means we'll only have classes 'til 8:30 am (unless our Finance professor decides to do an "overtime" again). Unfortunately, my plans on catching up on sleep, which I lack are ruined because my groupmates said that we'll be practicing for our P.E. [Dancing] presentation tomorrow. =_="

It's not like that I'm complaining, but they could've set a definite (or at least a freaking ESTIMATE) time. One of my groupmates said, "No one will be going home until we perfect the steps/routine". Like wtf... *twitch* I was asking for an estimated time, dammit.

Okay, she told me that we'll be staying in school until 1pm. I just hope that we'll be done at that time (or even earlier, I hope). =__=

Terrans, pffft.

Today was somewhat okay, although I got annoyed by a lot of terrans, they don't seem to recognize me unless they need something from me.
Part 1: The bottle of water. That certain terran does NOT talk to me at all, and all of a sudden, she approaches me just to have a drink.
Part 2: The stapler. She's also like the terran mentioned in part 1. I turned down her "request", though. I told her my stapler's out of staple wire.
Part 3: The locker. I admit, I don't mind if some terrans would like to put some of their books in my locker. But this one's too annoying, after getting her book, she left me. No thankyous whatsoever, she just left. As if I didn't do her a favor.

Oh well. That's life. =_=

Meh~ It seems that the stress makes me more impatient and hot-headed. So I guess I'll be friendless once again, sometime in the future. I am hated after all. But that doesn't give me the right to hate people too. I think I'm becoming more like some sort of Contra Mundi... Igne Natura Renovatur Integra.

My, my... time flies. I just checked the time awhile ago and now it's already 9pm.. whoah. ~_~" I guess I need to review now. Finance quiz tomorrow, and we'll be having a quiz about a topic that I don't really understand. Heck, I think it's just now that I encountered this topic, so I think this wasn't taken up yet o_O But then again, I don't listen much to Finance, I guess. Haha.

I REALLY have a bleak future. =_="
I wonder where I'll end up- in some other course, or maybe in the coffin? ~_~"

I still need to find some poison. No, really.

Gwaaaah... ~_~

2006-07-31T21:09:00.000+08:00

[mood | giddy]
[music | Malice Mizer - Baroque]

It's been a while since I last updated o.o; gawd, I can't believe it. I've been busy? O__O *gasps*

...

Anyway, I'm not sure if this is going to be a long post, but I intend for it to be short. So yeah, we've been busy with projects and assignments for the past few days, although I did a little "break" from Friday-Saturday because I was busy preparing for the NCC (National Cosplay Competition) which was held yesterday (July 30).

It was fun, and I'm quite happy too since I got into the top 50 O_o And quite amused with the Abel cosplayer because he improved his costume... and well, I wanted his Krusnik scythe.. lol. XDXD So yep, I got into the top 50, and I'm contented with that ^^; Although I'm more happy because I got to meet more cosplayers and... friends, perhaps.

I was kinda bothered with my make-up though, I think Nicole put too much foundation on my face. (She was too excited, I guess XD no offense, Nicole XP) I didn't look pale, I looked...white O_o And judging from the pictures that were taken on my digicam (especially the yaoi pic with Abel-sama T__T) , I really looked white. There's even this pic wherein I looked like I .. I dunno. I can't describe it =_=" So imagine that, I went through the catwalk thingy (for the top 100) looking like some weird, overly-powdered magician. O_o I got to fix it a bit after that, though, so I guess I looked a bit more okay in the catwalk thingy (for the top 50).

We were on camera during the event, and I'm not really sure if I looked okay there or not... *DIES*

*sings* Ako'y isang espasol~~~~

...I was kinda surprised with the top 50 catwalk though, because there was even a Q&A portion o_O And we were like "wtf, is this a pageant?" XD Each cosplayer was given different a different question and... mine's kinda okay, but my brain decided to stop functioning at the wrong moment. =_=

Me: *enters stage, bows, holds makeshift cigarette and tries to make a magic something something pose, then walks towards the mic*
Judge: .... okay, what made you choose your character for cosplay? :D
Me: Er, uh, well~ This character amused me. He's calm, and he has a .. a.. good ... good *pauses* demeanor... And he looks cool even if he's just calm..?
Judge: o_O .. Uh, okay, thank you ^^;
Me: ^^; *makes her last lame pose before going down the stage*

I'm so lame =_= ... but I guess my brain already stopped functioning when the emcee introduced me as "a recruit from the Vatican". O_o Erm, hi, I'm Isaak, I'm from the ORDEN, not the VATICAN. O_o lol do I look "holy" in my Orden uniform? *blinks*

Oh well.

The event was fun, although I wasn't able to do much "shopping", although I'm quite happy because at least I got to buy a black Mokona doll (which is the same size as my white Mokona doll), a random manga (which is Rurouni Kenshin O_o), a random poster (which is Cloud carrying Kadaj, from FF7:AC) and also this TB necklace which is some sort of red and gold cross. I didn't really want to buy the cross since it wasn't Abel's cross (I want that cross so badly T~T), but I bought it since the words "Trinity Blood" (which were written on the cardboard-paper thingy) kept pulling me in. XD Besides, it was the only TB item left in the stall~ so... X3

Haha, yep, I'm an addict. ~_~"

I also got to see some people who I met during the Toycon cosplay~ and one of them, Carla, cosplayed an Inquisitor :3 we weren't able to take any pics though, since we've been too busy with the NCC T__T And to think that I was already planning some sort of skit-thingy, lol. XD

So anyway, Ozinefest/NCC would be another event that I'd forever cherish in my heart. *mushmush* XD
Although I'm pretty sure that if I were to come to another event, I'll come as a spectator and not as a cosplayer... ~_~" My Isaak costume needs a break. XD And I'm not really enthusiastic about wearing the same costume for .. many times ^^;; Baka kasi pagsawaan, lol.

Oh well.

I guess we need to go back to our usual routines now, lol. Back to the old cram-for-homework and no-sleeping routine~~

Methuselah mode~ on. *starts cramming*

Finished, yet unfinished.

2006-07-25T20:35:00.000+08:00

[mood | worried]
[music | FF7:Advent Children - One Winged Angel (Cloud vs Sephiroth)]

Meh, can't log in to YM. It keeps error-ing when I get to connect. =__= Now I regret updating my YM to YM Beta. Dammit.

Anyway, I'm almost done with my English, I have around 10+ cards left do draw/print. XD Yay. I'm happy that I'm almost finished my English project, but I'm still worried for our Accounting class tomorrow.

I know tomorrow's a Wednesday, and we only have Accounting class during Tuesdays and Thursdays. But our professor said we'll be having a make-up class tomorrow, and he also said that we'll be submitting our assignment (which is to answer ALL the problems under the Bank Reconciliation chapter), so yeah.

And I'm darn proud (yep, I'm sarcastic here) to say that I haven't done ANYTHING with my Accounting assignment yet. What can I do? I'm too busy attending to my other assignments, and also I'm busy with my English project. I'm determined to finish it since it would be a shame to submit an incomplete project~ despite the fact that we were given LOTS of time to do this.

So yeah, I won't be submitting anything tomorrow for Accounting. I'm taking the risk here, but what the heck. Maybe I'll try copying tomorrow, IF someone would even be WILLING to let me copy her notes.

Ah, darn it.

Now, I say, I don't really think that I'd make it into 3rd year Accountancy. I'll be ending up at another course, or maybe end up in hell (after ending up in the coffin or something).

Classes were suspended yesterday and today. I know I spent my time doing the project, but I guess it still wasn't enough. Oh well, I tried.

I tried and I fail- at life.

...At least, there's a little feeling of contentment within me, somehow. At least I got to finish a lot. ~_~" That's what I accomplished for today, I guess...

Of downloading sprees and class suspensions.

2006-07-25T07:48:00.000+08:00

[mood | excited]
[music | Rain - Sad Tango]

You know~ It's funny, I tend to update more during school days, and I update rarely when we have no classes. Haha. Oh well. ~_~

So we don't have classes again today (we didn't have classes yesterday as well), and I'm saved from the recitation in Accounting (FOR THE NTH TIME! WOOT). XD Indeed, Mother Nature is merciful to us students, every once in a while. LOL.

Since I'm not yet done with my project, I can still have the "excuse" for going online. I'm downloading some pics (for m project) from the net, although I'm downloading more mp3s rather than pics since I have pics on my comp anyway. XD

*nods* I am addicted to Limewire, woot. XD And I'm addicted to Rain's songs, particularly "Sad Tango". I just found out that the Rain who's singing this song is the same Rain who starred at the Korean drama, Full House. O_O Well, that's what our maid said, anyway. But still~ wooooooot. He has a nice voice. *_* I think it's the first time I fangirled over a singer-artist or something. Or maybe not? *thinks of Hyde*

Anyway, as for the project, I have around 90+ words left to make. My mom said it's still many, but it's already "few" for me since I'm almost done. I'm excited, nyah. I want to finish it today. XD

Or then again...I'll finish it after I take a bath, lol.

Oh well~ that's all for now. Jaa XD

So much for a one-on-one study...

2006-07-22T22:11:00.000+08:00

[mood | somewhat accomplished]
[music | Malice Mizer - Beast of Blood]

... *repeats the title*

Oh well. XD

I asked my friend Mitchie to come over my house.. and we were supposed to work on our Accounting homework (which is so dark looooong and difficult) but we ended up not doing it =.= Instead, we ended up working on each other's English projects.

*nods* Yep yep. XD But she didn't draw though, we just tried helping each other out with the words and stuff.

And... it's Sunday AGAIN tomorrow, nyah~ and then we'll be back at school on Monday =.= They said that our country's president would be making her SONA (State-of-the-Nation Address), but there would still be classes.. I dunno. =_= I guess I'm hoping too much.

Time is so fast. It's almost time for the submission of our English project!!! O__O It's on the 27th and I'm still not finished, despite the fact that I DIDN'T draw all of my cards anymore. I printed some out XD *coughmangascansincomputercough*

I still have a long way to go. Around 150++ more. (Yes, I only finished around 10 cards for today. I am THAT lazy)

OMC, my mom's so gonna kill me. My printer's running low on black ink again, thanks to my English project. Meh. XD

I feel quite accomplished today (even if I wasn't able to accomplish much with my English project o.O) I got to download Limewire, and I got to download some mp3s that I've been hunting since... our flight back from Singapore (I heard some music on their "station" during the flight, so there). So....... yay~!! XD

I'm so in love with Beast of Blood (or is it Beasts of Blood? o.O) right now. <33 Yay.

Andandand one more week before Ozinefest/National Cosplay Competition <33 Woot. I still don't have the patches. But I'm quite happy because at least, my costume now has a pocket. At least I can put my wallet and cellphone in it.. and yeah. XD

I still need those patches. =_= And I reallyreallyREALLY need to re-make my gloves and armband soon. >.< Gah, so many things to do, so little time.

Oh well. Maybe I'll go to sleep now.

Of English projects and getting online... and some other crap.

2006-07-21T20:33:00.000+08:00

[mood | enraged]
[music | Wolf's Rain - Stray]

I'm supposed to be offline now because I needed to work on my English project, but then again, I thought of updating first before I diss myself off the net.

My mom barged into my room awhile ago and went.. naggy (as usual) about me using the Internet. The phone was "on" since this afternoon, so I thought of going online this evening. So yeah, I was pretty sure that she "lifted" the handset downstairs and found out that I'm online... and well, the rest was history, lol.

I'm annoyed because I rarely get to go online these days (thanks to some effing professors who think that their subject is the only subject that we are taking up), and now that I'm online, they get mad.

*groans* What's so wrong about going online? They should be happy that AT LEAST, I'm not hogging the internet THAT much anymore (much to my dismay T_T), and at least, I'm doing homework! Okay, nevermind that. *curses*

I'm still working on my English project (yes, the 250 words-drawings thingy) and I have around 160+ words left to do. Yes, there's a big decrease, because I did some "instant" cards awhile ago to lessen the load. I got some pics from various pictures in my folders here, and I made them into cards. Heh, effortless, but I'm really starting to doubt that I'd finish all 250 words if I DREW them all. So yep, I'm printing. Some. XD I'll still draw, don't worry.

So yeah, my mom also said something about my 250 words project. She said that she's quite worried because my project seems thick (hell yeah, it IS thick) and it might give our professor a hard time to carry it around. =___=

It's so typical of my mom to worry about something like that but I'm prepared for that. I already have a box here, it just needs some decoration.

I dunno... I was annoyed by the way she said it. She's acting as if she's my professor already, dammit.

So what if my project is thick? It's my idea (despite the fact that some terran "plagiarized" the idea too), and I can do anything I want with it. After all, our professor said that we can do ANYTHING with our project, as long as we get to present all the words... so why should she bother? As if naman maaapektuhan sila kapag makapal ang project ko... anong masama dun?

*groans again* Dammit. It's my project, it's my effort, so any consequences thereafter would be my responsibility. So if the professor says it's ugly, too anime-ish, too many/too thick, or something else, so be it. At least I'd be proud to say that I thought of the idea, and I didn't depend on my parents for the design or any other crap (except for the electricity and printer ink, duh).

I dunno but I feel that I don't have much privacy here (at home) anymore. It seems that they WANT me to TELL them everything, and I mean EVERYTHING.

Hell, no.

I'm gonna keep "hiding" some things from them, as usual. That's what privacy is for, after all.

Besides, it seems that I get at least a five-minute sermon for EVERY f*cking thing that I mention/share/say/voice out.

So I guess it's better to be silent, haha. Silence is bliss. Feeeh.

I wanna kill myself now (yes, really. I'm not calling for attention here, but I'm really driven to. my life is getting me crazy. But, I need to buy/find some good poison first XD) but I still have some cosplay plans to attend to, and I'm still in the Accountancy Program. Maybe I'll wait till I find out I'm out of the program or something. Meh.

I hate my life. =_=

...

Oh and I read some messages on the Filcosplay forum and.. I read that the NCC Participants are required to be at the event before 12 noon. O__________O ...OMC. XD I can't help but feel more excited. XD

However, before the event, comes the projects and some other crap.

Yaaaay. *in a sarcastic tone*

Meh...

2006-07-20T15:41:00.000+08:00

[mood | blah]
[music | the sound of many keyboards tapping.]

Updating from the comp lab now. I'm in a hurry because my parents are outside now >_>"

I miss going online, really. But I don't have much time, I still have 220+ words left to draw for our project in English. =__= Other than that, we have LOADS of homework to do.

I simply dunno how I will start on the work for next week. XD I really need to manage my time =_= So many things to do, gah. XD

I just thought of posting since I... really miss updating. ~_~"

Random note: Terrans are annoying.

Meh... I still feel enthusiastic about our English project, though. But it seems that I need at least TWO whole days (without sleep, perhaps) to complete everything. ~_~" And considering the overly-detailed drawings per word, I don't think I'll be coloring it anymore. O_o Although I already colored 13 (I painted them with... watercolor), but I think I'll scan them, make them into B&W, and then print them out again.

It's just now I realized that I don't need to color my drawings anymore, because (according to my classmates), they already look okay. Besides, I don't really think I'd be able to color them all, because I'm already "hard up" drawing them, considering that I don't have much time.

Oh well, I need to budget my time. XD I still need to do some homework in Finance later.. =_= I hope my "partner" will contact me too, though. =_=

I seriously need to post, so I'm posting.

2006-07-18T21:18:00.000+08:00

[mood | rushed]
[music | Tsubasa Chronicle - Amrita]

Okay, I was supposed to update at school (in the computer lab) awhile ago, but Blogger didn't load. =_=" (I think I need to tell it to the people in charge there.. or something O_o) So yeah... it was useless. Oh well.

You might be wondering why I'm online O_o I'm supposed to be kinda grounded, but what the heck. Nevermind. I'm using my English project as an excuse so I can update just this once before I go insane again. But I'm working on my project too! *copying a random KKJ pic now for a random card*

Err.. okay, moving on. *ahem*

A lot has happened during the past few days, although I'm not in the mood to type them all down. First off, I got kinda grounded from going online, so... yeah. ~_~" I know it's crap but I guess I have to live with it for a while. I got into a major argument-turned-drama-and-then-into-an-argument-again with my parents last Sunday [night], and yeah. I won't go into details with this one because I don't want to remember it. Meh.

And on a random note, I'm seeing to it that I "shut up" when I'm with my parents. Well, it's not in the sense that I don't talk anymore, but I won't be talking unless I'm asked to, or something. Because...
1) If I talk about anything related to school, they'll blabber about studying hard... again.
2) If I talk about anime/cosplay, they start cursing/swearing anime and blabber about "dedicating 70% of your time to studies, not to any other BULLSHIT."

So it's better to shut up rather than being annoyed, ne? *grins*

So anyway, my life is boring as usual, and I got annoyed at the terrans (you know who they are) around me-- a lot. XD I dunno, I seem to be easily annoyed these days. Maybe the stress at home + stress in school is getting on to me.. lol.

I miss going online, nyah. XD;; Although I guess it's for my own good since I really have a lot of stuff to do, and I need to work hard so I can be homework-free by July 28. I seriously need to attend to my costume for NCC, I still haven't made anything "new". ~_~ I need to buy "new" gloves first, though. And also some red cloth for the "new" armband. XD And yes.. *gasps* the darned patches. *shrugs* WHERE AM I GOING TO FIND SOMEONE WHO MAKES THE RCO PATCHES?!?!!?!

Mou... I really need to have a haircut soon, maybe.. after the cosplay? XD; But really, I need a haircut soon, it's getting hard to manage my hair. And that includes the split-ends. *groans*

I'm kinda lenient tonight since.. we didn't have any classes last Friday (our professors didn't show up O_o). So it's like a "new" meeting tomorrow. Although I'm pretty sure that there MIGHT be a quiz in Finance... but I'm too lazy to review since I'm too enthusiastic about my English project. Besides, I even doubt that I'd even remember ALL those 20+++ formulas. =__= Meh.

...

I felt like typing something but... I dunno. I'm out of words... soo... bye for now. ^^;

Talk about equivalent trade. =__=

2006-07-16T17:03:00.000+08:00

[mood | frustrated]
[music | Ghost in the Shell - Lithium Flower]

I know I'm kinda annoyed at my parents these days, but for once, they have said something that I'm totally agreeing with.

Yep, they're right. A lot of people "gain" something from me, while I don't "receive" something in return. I always try to help people in need, but when I'm the one who needs help, I have to struggle on my own.

I just thought about this while talking (well not really talking, it's more like a very short conversation) with one of my friends (no, this isn't you Talia, Shinn, or any of my HS friends). ~_~ Meh, I'm not mad, just.. frustrated.

I'm only asking for a little thing, which is a VOTE for the National Cosplay Competition. It's just one vote, and even if you needed to register, it's not really tedious.

It's just.. one thing. One little thing, and she .. well.. nevermind.

Again, I say, I'm not mad. Just frustrated because I think I've done some stuff for her before, but oh well.

That's life, I guess.

Anyway~ I just realized that I really have to work hard before July 30. XD I have a lot to do, and I should be free of schoolwork by the 28th since I still need to make/paint/decorate a new pair of gloves, and also repaint/remake my armband. And also go shopping for make-up (black eyeshadow and white foundation, to be exact). XD

Meh. I need to take a break from going online. I need to accomplish... a lot. XD; Gawd I need more SELF-discipline. Not discipline from my parents, thank you. XD

I miss Starbucks Coffee. ~_~" Especially that Caramel Macchiato. I'd love to drink it now but it's not that cold/rainy anymore.. oh well. XD

"I had no idea he was so desperate..." -Ion

2006-07-15T17:54:00.000+08:00

[mood | angsty]
[music | that TB episode where Ion is angsting and stuff...]

I just realized that watching angsty/touching/tearjerking scenes (of any anime, but particularly TB?XD) is a good excuse for crying, even if your reason isn't really about what you're watching.. I guess all those annoyances are really getting on to me, I just realized that my tears are trying to resurface again. I just needed a good cry. My heart feels so heavy that I feel like it's going to break down or something.

My dad was in the room awhile ago, he was watching a random old movie (as usual) on my DVD player. Nothing special about that, since he wasn't so annoying (unlike a few days ago). My mom also went into my room and as usual, she started blabbing about studies and stuff.

I just can't help but feel restless because she keeps blabbing about me using the computer. I dunno, they're too prejudice. Does using the computer immediately mean that I'm wasting my time?

Oh, and she also "objected" against my idea for my English project (which is to make the cards look "old"). She said that it's messy, and she doesn't like how it looks since it would look dirty. She also said that I should just color it instead. No side "burns", no coffee-painting. =_=" She said I can continue with what I want, but judging by the way she said it, it's almost like she's indirectly saying "If you don't follow my advice, you'll be sorry". =_______="

You know, I feel like some sort of CHAINED puppet right now. I don't mind being marionetted by Dietrich but it's my parents who are marionetting me here dammit. I don't think I'd ever be given an opinion or something. I really want to let them know about how I feel, but all I get is nothing. I don't get any decent replies, all I get are prejudiced sermons. I just really don't know now, I don't know what to do with my wretched life...

So yeah, I'm currently watching that scene with Ion angsting over Radu betraying him and stuff (YES, I'M WATCHING IT OVER AND OVER, REWINDING IT OVER AND OVER), and I'm crying my heart out because:
1) I feel like crying my heart out.
2) I know how it feels to be betrayed, just like Ion there.

And I'm pretty sure that my eyes would be all weird later, and I'm sure that I'd be kinda sleepy during the missa (mass) later. Gawd, am I turning into some sort of demon or what?O_o

Ah what the heck. I'll still cry my heart out while I have the time... and the chance. And now is, most probably, the time to do so, before I turn completely insane...

Of annoying parents and unoriginal terrans.

2006-07-15T12:26:00.000+08:00

[mood | crappy/annoyed]
[music | Gackt - Redemption]

It seems that my parents are getting more and more annoying these days. I dunno if it's just because of that 'time of the month', but they really tick me off.

I arrived home from school (and after dropping by at Starbucks in the nearby mall) and I immediately started on my project for English. And then my mom barged in, teary-eyed, because she was "touched" with the movie that she watched =_=" So anyway, she took some tissue from my dresser and then glanced at me.

Mom: ... And what are you doing? *raises eyebrow* Didn't I just tell you a few days ago that you need to STUDY?
Me: This is my project in English. Any problem, madame? *sarcastic*
[insert a brief moment of silence here]
Mom: You better not waste your time on that, you know.
Me: DIDN'T I JUST TELL YOU THAT IT'S MY PROJECT AND I AM NOT WASTING MY-- *cut off because her mom closed the door on her*

Ugh... so much for talking to mom, I'm talking to thin air. =_=" ah what the heck. *locks her room door so no more disturbances will ensue*

I told you they're really annoying me these days. . . and I tell you, I AM really entering the rebellion stage because of THEM. *points to parents* But yes~ I still love them. Somehow. No really. *snorts*

And on another note, terrans are really original. *sarcastic again* One of my classmates "copied" my style of presentation for the 250 words thingy. *TWITCH* Yesss~ talk about original. Meh. =_=" Now our professor will be seeing one set of "semi-gothic" cards, and another set of cards which are... well... "neon". Of course, mine's the semi-gothic one. Meh~~

So yeah, I brought my project in English yesterday, since we have a long break (around 2 hours) during Fridays (and Wednesdays). I thought I'd bring my project along so I can work on it during my free time, and considering that I have around 250 words to "draw", I thought I shouldn't waste my time... I know that I know how to draw, but I know I can't draw all 250 words in one night, so yeah. Duh. XD

Unfortunately, I was stupid enough not to realize that some other people would see my progress, and might copy my style of presentation...

And yes, one of them did. She brought her "cards" along awhile ago, and I was like "O_O OMC NUUUU!!!" when I saw them. =_=" At least, her border was different (it's not TB, duh) and the paper that she used are colorful. Mine's only plain white, but I'll be doing something to it when I finish drawing everything. XD So yeah, her "cards" are colorful but I dunno, the colors are too neon-ish. It kinda hurts my eyes. =_=

Ah what the heck. I swear I'll make my project pretty. BECAUSE I'M THE FIRST ONE TO THINK OF THE CARD THINGY AS THE PRESENTATION, NOT HER DAMMIT!!!!

Actually, I was just keeping my emotions inside awhile ago. XD I felt like strangling her awhile ago, really. Can't she just think of a MORE ORIGINAL presentation? Nagmumukhang ako tuloy ang nangopya ng style, ano ba yan.

Damn herrrr.

I know I don't have the right to tell her what to do, but heck, I feel plagiarized. It's just annoying, really.

Ah what the heck. I'll post more next time. *runs off to do more on her project*

Fading. . .?

2006-07-12T19:08:00.000+08:00

[mood | contemplative]
[music | still that lame old movie that my dad is watching.]

I just noticed that I'm not that enthusiastic about my studies for the past few days. Really, it's obvious, I tend to procrastinate more, and I tend to be more lazy. Like now, as I type this entry...

I've been "saved" yesterday, there wasn't a recitation, and the assignments weren't checked. And since there was the suspension of classes today, there's no reason to me to go to school tomorrow without having read the assigned chapters and having finished my incomplete Accounting assignment.

I dunno...

I was just thinking about how my highschool and elementary life was. All I did was study and run after awards, as my parents tell me to.

And now, I just feel like everything's crumbling into pointlessness. I don't feel like running after awards anymore, I don't feel enthusiastic at all.

Does this mean that I'm getting tired of the studying-hard habit? Or it is just because I'm affected by the cloudy skies which induce me into contemplation?

I just hope it's just the cloudy skies...

My parents are always there to nag at me about studying, but I don't feel motivated at all. And I try to think of a goal, but I always seem it would be impossible.

I tend to think of suicide at times, just to end it all off. But I haven't been kicked out of the Accountancy program yet, so I guess all I can do now is to plan.

And I guess I'm starting it now. :3

Does anyone know where I can buy some poison? I mean the lethal one, obviously. I need to buy some by myself, duh. How can I buy poison if I'm with my parents? =_=

I'm insane, I tell you.

Oh well. Off to do homework~ *walks off*

Parents... =_=

2006-07-12T18:43:00.000+08:00

[mood | angry but still keeping it inside...]
[music | that lame movie that my dad's watching.]

Okay, so much for a good day.

Classes were suspended, although the announcement was only made one hour before we got dismissed. o.O Oh well. The rain and the dark clouds made up for it, anyway.

So yeah, I was busy camwhoring as Isaak during the afternoon, and I ate a lot too. Everything was okay until my dad barged in the room.

I told you, my parents sometimes never cease to annoy me.

So yeah, it went like this.

Me: *typing*
Dad: *goes into the room*
Me: Papa, we'll be at the event by 8:30 am on July 30, okay? ^_^
Dad: *speaks as he looks at the DVD player* You're not studying again!
Me: ... *TWITCH*
Me, in my mind: IF YOU WANT ME TO STUDY THEN GET OUT OF MY ROOM DAMMIT!!! DON'T WATCH YOUR DARN VCD HERE, WATCH IT SOMEWHERE ELSE!
Dad: I wanna watch this. Play it.
Me: ... *puts the VCD into the player*

And so the annoyance went on and on~ but he's still dense. And annoying. =_=
Meh, nevermind... *walks off*

The problem is, even if I'm not doing anything related to studies, I just can't concentrate since my dad's here =_= Heck, I can't concentrate if someone else is here that excludes the ghosts and magicians and stuff, thank you. =_="

I hate my life.

Shhh, don't tell anyone I'm online. XD

2006-07-11T22:47:00.000+08:00

[mood | annoyed]
[music | silence]

Sneaking in, despite the fact that my dad's currently in my room, watching some random old movie =_=' I'm currently annoyed since my dad keeps whining about the movie, and he keeps saying "Wait, I've already seen this movie!" or something like "The movie is too old." o____O Like hello, why did you buy the movie in the first place?

And the other thing that annoys me right now is that some terrans are just too unreliable. Like what I said in one of my previous entries, these terrans never reply to any of your messages, especially if the message contains something that says "I need your help", blahblahblah. It's so annoying. I'm really tempted not to reply to their text messages next time, just in order to give them a dose of their own medicine...

But then again, I guess I'm too kind. But my fuse is running short. XD

*ahem* Anyway.

I got a handful of "sermons" from my parents a few days ago. So I'm gonna stay "quiet" for a few days.. ~_~ Besides I'm kinda annoyed at them, they did nothing but nag at me about my studies.

Meh.. I know I'm not doing my best but.. *sighs*

Now I feel regretful for having studied too much during my highschool days. o.O I didn't even get to enjoy the somewhat "free" time I got there and all.. lol. It seems that my "flame of enthusiasm" is fading. Meh~~

Oh well. I guess my Isaak cosplay WILL be my first AND last cosplay =_=" Oh well. I need to save up. So I can shoulder the cosplay expenses on my own, perhaps? But then again, I'm still dependent on my parents o.O And I don't have a business of my own yet, so meh =_='

...

It rained awhile ago, lol. The winds were strong too... and because of it, me and my friend Mitchie arrived at the mall after a few hours o_O So yeah, we stayed at the mall for a while, ate at Starbucks and did our Finance homework... and yeah.

I had fun, obviously. My feet hurt though. XD

We also got to buy this notebook that has the design "Coffee Addict" on it. Mitchie and I bought one each. XD We're gonna use it as our notebook for our Law subject, squee. XD;;

Okay, my entry's getting long. o.O I should be off now. X3 Bye.

sings In the cold breeze that I walk along...

2006-07-09T18:56:00.000+08:00

[mood | full]
[music | Wolf's Rain - Stray]

...the memories of generations burn within me...

Meh.

I'm still not done with homework. XD
I still have around 3 things to do...

And we're going out later to hear mass.. and I'm sure I'll be spaced-out again. XD

Woot, I really have a bleak future... ~.~

Friends indeed, in time of need =_=

2006-07-09T11:44:00.000+08:00

[mood | aggravated]
[music | Tsubasa Chronicle - Jasmin]

Don't you just hate it when a friend texts you only in times when she needs something? =_= And when you text her, or when you need her, she doesn't reply.

Pffft.

I'm giving her the "oh, I dunno" treatment now.

Why should I even bother? Every time I text/ask her about something, it's either she:
1) Doesn't reply
2) Say she doesn't know about it.

Feeeeeeeh. *stomps off*

Uhhh. Huh. >_>...

2006-07-09T11:28:00.000+08:00

[mood | envious]
[music | Cowboy Bebop - Tank!]

I know. I'm envious. XD

But then again, I don't have much right to be envious because it's my doing after all......... XD I've been procrastinating too much.

I envy my classmate... XD She's already done with our Finance homework, and our Accounting homework.. and she's halfway done with our English project O.O Woot.

She really knows how to manage time. X3 *worships her*

I need to start working on my homework.... =___=

...more rants on Financial Management? XD

2006-07-06T21:38:00.000+08:00

[mood | DOOMED!!!!]
[music | Tsubasa Chronicle - Kaze no machi he]

FINANCIAL MANAGEMENT QUIZ TOMORROW.
AND I CAN'T REMEMBER/ABSORB ANY OF THE FORMULAS~~~

*runs around*

I'M DOOMED!!!!! X_X
I'm sooo going to have a clean paper *again* tomorrow. Damnit. XD

And it's kinda funny that THAT PROFESSOR keeps on telling/scaring us about the CPA board examination. =_=" Like, hello~ we're still in second year, so we can't tell if we are going to take that board examination or not O_o

Heck, I am even starting to DOUBT that I am going to make it! =__= Feeeh.
Don't tell me that I'll be booted out of the Accountancy program just because of Financial Management? WTF.

A total WTF, I tell you.

I wish there's another professor who teaches Financial Management... I'D BE OKAY WITH ANYONE, BUT NOT HIM!!! Puh-lease.

And because of this darn subject professor, I even got to "love" our major subject =_= Even if it's hard.

Gawd. I'd rather take up FinAco (Financial Accounting), because AT LEAST, our professor for this subject is GOOD/DECENT. Unlike .. graaah. *groans*

Okay, enough ranting. Time to gather up money to hire an assassin attempt to squeeze in more formulas into my brain..... *runs off*

Ahihi, napahiya eh noh.

2006-07-06T08:11:00.000+08:00

[mood | guilty]
[music | the net shop's music o_O]

Updating from the internet shop now. o_o I WAS SAVED AGAIN O.O woot.
Our professor in Accounting's absent... so yeah, we're free 'till 10:30am.

Meh, checked the forums awhile ago and I noticed that I THINK I offended someone in the TB topic of the forum ~_~

I guess I'm too addicted now, and I'm becoming narrow-minded, lol. Wait, I AM already narrow-minded, haha.

Anyway, we were talking about TB and one member posted about Hellsing in the topic. And being the stupid being that I am, I told him that he's going off-topic.. ~.~
So he retorted back in return: "Not really, we are still in the domain of TB. is comparing your beloved Trinity Blood to a vampire anime classic already being off-topic?"

Amp, napahiya tlga ako dun. XD *hides* I tried apologizing though, but I dunno if he'll accept my apology ^^;; I think I'm already annoying him ever since that "issue" thingy in the loveteam forum. Haha.

Anyway~

My throat's still kinda weird. I think I'm going to have a cold =_=" Or maybe 'tis just some sort of punishment since I kinda went overboard with my words a few days ago (yes, it's about that professor of doom).

Kinda bored now ~_~ I wanna play RO but I don't have load. X3 Nostalgia~~
No one's online at YM too. So I'm really bored... and kinda bothered.

I'm so stupid =_='

Ah, the wonders of music... semi-emo mode

2006-07-05T20:52:00.000+08:00

[mood | pensive]
[music | The Rasmus - Shot]

Shot
by The Rasmus

Tonight we escape
Just you and me
We'll find our peace
Somewhere across the seas

Enough of the fright
Enough of the fuss
I'll be awake if he finds us
Needless to say
I'll stand in your way
I will protect you
And I...

I'll take the shot for you
I'll be the shield for you
Needless to say
I'll stand in your way
I'll take the shot for you
I'll give my life for you
I'll make it stop
I'll take the shot
For you
For you

Tonight we'll be free
I'll find us a home
Tonight we will be
Finally on our own

Enough of the hell
Enough of the pain
I won't let him touch you
I love you
Needless to say
I'll stand in your way
I will defend you
And I...

I'll take the shot for you
I'll be the shield for you
Needless to say
I'll stand in your way
I'll take the shot for you
I'll give my life for you
I'll make it stop
I'll take the shot
For you
For you

Enough of the scars
Enough broken hearts
I will protect you
And I...

I'll take the shot for you
I'll be the shield for you
Needless to say
I'll stand in your way
I'll take the shot for you
I'll give my life for you
I'll make it stop
I'll take the shot
I'll take the shot

I'll make it stop

I'll make it stop
I'll take the shot

Blearggggh. I need motivation ;_;

2006-07-05T20:24:00.000+08:00

[mood | mellow]
[music | Gundam Seed - Shoot]

I was saved once... and I was saved again. However, I have a strong feeling that I won't be saved this time.

I just can't believe I spent 8+ hours doing NOTHING. Okay, I was surfing the net and stuff; that's doing something but I still consider it as NOTHING since I'm supposed to study and... =_= Argh.

I seriously NEED motivation. I'm gonna get myself into DOOM.
Oh wait, I think I AM already doomed. =_='

Meh~ I think there's going to be another recitation for Accounting tomorrow.. =_= Gaaah~ I'm really doomed.

...And~ quiz on Friday, for Financial Management. NUUUUUUUUUUU~ *groans* I DON'T UNDERSTAND THE LESSON~ WAH~ I HATE THAT---- THAT PROF!!!!!!! ARGH!!

*coughs* Okay, enough ranting. ~_~" As if I can do anything about it anyway... meh.

My throat's kinda weird lately... o.o I dunno. I feel like I'm going to have a cold =.= Nuuuu.

I'm currently burning the TB pics that I have for my friends Jeni and Nicole (who are going to July 30 too, yay XD)... ahaha, they're going to have all 451 pics in my comp, lol. XD I hope they get to buy that ticket soon. ~_~"

Meh~ feeling really lazy now =___= gawd. That's all for now I guess.. ~_~" Bye~

The past returns to haunt us all... (random title again)

2006-07-03T22:08:00.000+08:00

[mood | uncomfortable]
[music | the aircon. lol]

Okay, I can't absorb ANYTHING here, I can't put what I'm reading into mind.
Great, I'm doomed for the Accounting recitation tomorrow. =_="

And guess what, I watched Pokemon on TV a few hours ago, and yeah, nostalgia~~ XD *random*

I'm getting more random every time I feel all worried and giddy with all the cramming.

Squeee, my mom's gonna kill me.

I dunno if I should sleep now.. or should I continue reading my Accounting? o.O
*walks off*

I'm losing hope... because of myself.

2006-07-03T21:26:00.000+08:00

[mood | nervous]
[music | xxxHOLiC - Ayakashi no Izanai]

Meh... cramming time again. School's crap, I tell you. ~_~
I'm currently working on my reflection thingy for Religion, nothing special about that... but anyway I'm gonna read more about Accounting later, because we will have a recitation tomorrow X_X

And I can't help but feel scared because some of my classmates (who were called) didn't get good grades... and yup, that included some of my classmates who were doing "good" in class too. *groans* Gawd, even my classmate Barbs got an 80, and knowing her, she's not content with that grade because she's doing her best to get academic awards or so.

It's not that I'm not after awards too, but I dunno =_= I'm losing hope, haha.

Gawd. I'm hopeless. ~_~

Anyway, I made a new layout (even at a time like this, lol). And I like it XD It's my favorite TB pic as of the moment X3 *stares*

Anyway, just a short update. 'Till next time~~

The way of the fallen (random title, really.)

2006-07-02T20:03:00.000+08:00

[mood | aggravated]
[music | Vandread OST - Vandread Meia]

Feeeh, long time no post.

Nothing much's been happening lately, school is crap as usual, and I'm still addicted to Trinity Blood. And now I got more pics, thanks to Ate Ori (oracle from Filcosplay) who gave me a great linkie. <3 Nyah.

So yeah =_=' I've been busy lately, although I still have the time to procrastinate sometimes...

=___= Well the reason that I'm annoyed tonight is that a certain someone texted me about this "homework" for P.E.... and being the dense person that I am, I asked her if there really was a homework (since I didn't hear anything about having to make homework, except for the practice for the dance part)... and all I got for an answer is a freaking "dunno."?!?! WTF

I therefore conclude that I won't reply to any messages sent by them UNLESS I feel like replying. =_= For Cain's sake, can't they reply more decently? Not in such a way that I feel like I'm getting a "careless" reply... *twitch*

Anyway, I don't feel like elaborating more on this matter =_= I still have the effing reaction paper to do for Entrepreneurship o_O And I wonder if I'd get to write anything about it because I'm not really listening during that time =_= Our professor for that subject makes me feel bored.

...I seriously need to have some motivation.

*turns to the pic of Cain in Krusnik form*

.. *prays*

OH CONTRA MUNDI~ HELP MEEEEEEEEEEH XD

*gets whacked, and then walks off*

=_=

2006-06-29T22:33:00.000+08:00

[mood | listless]
[music | silence]

I'm seriously doomed.

Okay, I tried reviewing awhile ago, but there isn't a single formula that remained in my head. =_=" I think my brain automatically rejects information regarding our subject with THAT professor. Yup, it's Finance, again.

Ugh~ *groans*

I need to study X_X but I think I'm too affected by the Accounting quiz this morning =.= I didn't even get a single correct answer, darn...

I shouldn't be affected... but I dunno *sighs*

I have a bleak future. =_=

OMFG SQUEEE~

2006-06-26T18:32:00.000+08:00

[mood | rejuvenated]
[music | Yakitate! Japan - To All Tha Dreamers]

My Tarot reading for today:
THE HERMIT: It's a pretty view from where you're looking. All of a sudden you've got a new song to sing, and you want to spread it around.

I can't believe it fitted what I experienced for this afternoon. ^^" Nyah.
And thanks to this, I felt rejuvenated now, and I'm quite hyper now. Hence, I shall do my homework...........after I finish this entry XD

Nyahhhh ... I got into the Top 100 in the National Cosplay Competition, NYAH. *still shocked* Now I have to postpone my cosplay plans for Mizuki (I'm not yet sure if I'm gonna continue with it anyway, seeing as my parents are against it) ^^"

At least, I have a reason to bug my parents to have my costume fixed (or should I say, POCKET-ed. It needs pockets, dammit).

Oh, and I also got a violation in school today. XD Well we had our P.E. (Dancing) during the morning and yeah, so we were wearing our P.E. uniforms... and we went out for lunch after that. And soon we went back to school in our P.E. uniforms... and we were reprimanded by the school security guard. =_= We were surprised since our professor (for the second subject) allowed us to come to her class in our P.E. uniform... but then again, coming to other classes in P.E. uniform was against the school policy which we were stupid enough to forget. ~_~ So there, 8 of us got our IDs confiscated. Haha. Oh well.

It was quite embarrassing, really. But I guess it's okay, it's part of life and my stupidity. ~_~ I just hope I'd get my ID back by tomorrow, lol *prays*

Anyway, that's all for now~ haha. I still need to cram for my Accounting homework which is due tomorrow. And guess what, almost everyone's finished, and I'm just starting, LOL.

I'm doomed. X3

Waaa, TB mania XD

2006-06-25T17:20:00.000+08:00

[mood | excited]
[music | Cardcaptor Sakura - Platinum]

OMGOMGOMG SO MANY COSPLAY PLANS AND AAAAAAAH *dies*

It's so ironic, just as I'm starting to enjoy cosplay, that's the time when I have to get more serious about my studies T_T I just wish I can turn back time.. so I should've cosplayed since HS XD but anyway.

*breathes*

FIRST THE FORUM COSPLAYED FULLMOON AND THEN SUIKODEN AND THEN CCS AND NOW THEY WANT TB AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!! THIS IS SO INTERESTING LOLLL *runs around*

Waaah~ I want to do an all-out cosplaying this year!!! Before I die of depression and stuff next year T_T

My life is miserable, aaah~ =_=

2006-06-25T14:13:00.000+08:00

[mood | cranky]
[music | xxxHOLiC - Reason]

I love rainy days, squee. I felt so relaxed until my parents barged in to my room a few minutes ago =_=" And now I'm annoyed. Nyah.

Anyways~~ nothing much has been happening for the past few days, except that our professor in Accounting kept bombarding us with 40++ pages of homework or so. Bleargh, I want to give up, but I must keep moving =_=" He's a great teacher, sure, but I think he doesn't realize that we have OTHER subjects too. *mumbles*

I can still take the pressure, but I dunno, I easily get impatient sometimes. I easily snap, and stuff, lol. Nevermind =_=

And I need some motivation. It's already Sunday, we have classes tomorrow, and our Accounting assignment's due on Tuesday, lol. I still haven't started on it. Haha.

=_______= I am doomed. *poses*

Oh and I got into a one-way argument with my parents a few days ago. XD I called it "one-way argument" since my parents do all the bitching talking. Bleargh. Soooo yeah, it's because of one thing: cosplay. Heh, fate is cruel indeed. =_=

Well as you all know, I cosplayed Isaak at the ToyCon event, and yeah, I certainly enjoyed it because my parents were not in the event so I got to move freely. I also got to see some of my friends from the forum I'm in, and after a few days, they planned to make another cosplay group. It's CCS, and they want me to cosplay Kaho Mizuki since I'm tall and stuff. XD

I asked my parents about it, and I got to listen to another sermon in return. =_=" *groans*

Nyah, I dunno what to do. I want to cosplayyyyy~ but my parents are against it. Man, they really drive me into the rebellion stage, feeeh.

I dunno... to do or not to do, lol. But I want to cosplay, especially with my friends from the forum <3 But nyahhh T___T I hate this.

XD Here I go again, AGAIN.

2006-06-20T23:00:00.000+08:00

[mood | bouncy]
[music | Radu Barvon Nobuo Uematsu - Blue Fields]

I'm supposed to be asleep now, but what am I doing? AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH~~~

I'm doomed. ~_~

Quiz in Finance tomorrow, and I still haven't reviewed. Heh. I'm really doomed. XD

We'll be having a mass tomorrow too, not that I'm complaining though, but nyah~~

Aaaannnddd~ I will not bring my Mokona plushie tomorrow. It's getting dirty from all that cuddling, and I keep easily distracted during class because I just can't resist its cuteness. =_=" Gwaaaaah. XD

Oh well. I'll post next time. I'll read a bit, then I'll sleep. Nyah~~ XD;

Here we go again~ =_=

2006-06-19T21:25:00.000+08:00

[mood | restless]
[music | Noir - Em More]

I SHOULD REAAAAAAAAALLY BE STUDYING NOW. NYAH~~
Gawd, I hate coming home late =_=" But anyway, HOMEWORK TIME *groans*

Oh well, at least my Mokona plushie's here to keep me amused *huggles the plushie* XD

And I got to buy some stuff (AGAIN) from the mall~ this time, I bought another pin. It's a Saiyuki pin, haha. XD I also bought the latest RO cd that's available. I'm still collecting RO stuff, but I rarely play RO anymore. Woot.

And~~~ considering the homework overload, I don't think I'd be able to draw/color/make any more commissions as of the moment. Which means~~

All RPG arts and all Gaia commissions will be on hold.

Thank you. XD;;;
Now, time to studyyyyyyyy *runs off*

Toycon is looove, lol~

2006-06-18T19:01:00.000+08:00

[mood | good]
[music | Nightwish - Wishmaster]

Nyaah~ ToyCon was so much fun. XD I want to thank my professor in Law (Obligations and Contracts) for being ABSENT. Because I got to go early, and I got to register early for the cosplay too. <3 *squees*

So, yeah, I was the only TB cosplayer there, lol. The Abel (from May 21) didn't show up, although I was happy since I get to meet with previous TB cosplayers (particularly the one who cosplayed Vaclav Havel). XD I met a lot more too, but I can't remember them all ^^;;;

I dunno. I have a lot of experiences, but I dunno how to type them down, haha. Speechless, I should say.

Although I still can't believe I did that "applaud for me!" pose. Haha, yes I'm a lousy Isaak~~ XD
Nyah. Now that ToyCon's over =.= time for homework. *groans*

First day blues. XD

2006-06-15T19:03:00.000+08:00

[mood | good]
[music | Fllay Allster Utawarerumono - Madoromi no Rinne]

So much for the first day of classes. Well, it was... so-so. ~_~
My feet hurt though, I think I'm not used to wearing heeled shoes after almost 2-3 months. O_o Oh well~ XD

The professors were okay, so far. I like our professor in Microeconomics. I dunno, she keeps the class (and me) awake, somehow. And I like her incentive for the recitation, it's a good one. All of us will have 75% for our recitation at the START, but as time passes, we'll earn points. So we need to recite every now and then so we can raise that 75% to 100%, lolol. And since we took Economics in highschool... I guess I have a little background of it. But I need to refreeeesh. ~__~

Oh and same goes for our professor in Accounting although I was surprised when he told us to cover our Accounting notebooks with Hello Kitty and Tweety stuffs. Our professor in Accounting is quite young, although he's completely different from our Finance professor who annoys me like hell with his jokes that are NOT funny at all. Our teacher in Accounting is... good, he has a good sense of humor, and he's quite better than the Finance professor. Hoho, guess who. ~_~

And as for Rel.Ed., our professor was absent, but a substitute professor came in. She's the same substitute professor who substituted our Rel.Ed. professor (during the second sem), so yeah, I'm not surprised with the requirements. I need to start searching for a good terran community to render "service" to, since it's also required... ~_~" *dies*

Anyway, in the last subject/period which is Speech Communication (our English class for this semester), the professor was absent. Although we didn't realize that since we were too busy playing games (while waiting for the professor)... 8D Oh wait, THEY were the ones busy playing games. I tried to play along but I keep making wrong answers XD I don't seem to understand the rules/strategy of the game. Well, that's for the "this is the __, that's the top of the ___, that's the bottom of the ___..... and this is a ___." game. I kinda enjoyed the "Black Magic" game though, but I need more examples since I'm TOO DENSE... besides, I only understood the "Black Magic" game when the game ended. O_o XDDDDDDDDD

I was amused, nevertheless. ~_~ And I'm happy since I got to buy two Starbucks coffee(s) today. 8D I bought one Tall during the first break, and one Grande for the second break/lunch break. XD Squeee~~

Although it's sad that we are going to have a quiz in Accounting next meeting (Tuesday). *sighs* I NEED TO FIND/BUY THAT TEXTBOOK. NYAH~~~

And~ the things to do for tonight:
---Re-write notes in Accounting, Microeconomics, and Rel.Ed.; put notes in respective notebooks
---Cover my Microeconomics notebook with TB pics. X3 So it'll look pretty when I pass it to my professor!! XD *whacked*
---Research about "Lumen Gentium" FOR THE VATICAN!!! for... er... Rel.Ed.

Did I forget something? Oh nevermind, I'll check my assignment notebook covered with that sexy yaoi-ish pic of Isaak and Dietrich later. XDD~

Oh, and guess what. I ATE LUNCH WITH EZARIA AND COMPANY TODAY!!!!! O_O THEY NOTICED I EXIST!!!! ..OMFG IT'S A MIRACLE. *sarcastic* I'm still kinda awkward with them, but I guess we need to move on. At least, I got to experience to be "with them" without having to "provide" anything... for once. ~_~ But I guess, terrans will always be terrans, right? ~_~ Oh well.

LOL I sound so much like Ion before he met Esther and the other terrans.

Anyway, that's enough for now. Hope to update next time~ XD
Oh...and wish me luck tomorrow... WE'RE MEETING WITH THAT.. THAT PROFESSOR OF DOOM AGAINNNNNN!!!!!!!!! *dies*

Ugh. =_=

2006-06-14T20:59:00.000+08:00

[mood | listless]
[music | Takahashi Hitomi - Aozora no Namida]

OMG SCHOOL STARTS TOMORROW AND I STILL HAVEN'T PREPARED MY UNIFOOOOOOOOORM XD~~~~~
Darn, I don't feel enthusiastic at all =_=" Feeeeh.

I'm gonna face those terrans again.. OH THE HORROR. *dies*

Nostalgia Day.

2006-06-13T22:31:00.000+08:00

[mood | nostalgic]
[music | DNAngel - Mitsumeru Saki Ni Wa]

No, really. First off, I missed a lot of stuff today... and a lot of people as well. Nyah, I dunno if the school-is-near fever is getting on to me or what, but anyway.

I'm supposed to be offline, but since my comp's still on, I just thought of posting. *shrugs* Nyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

I miss my highschool friends.
I miss my guildmates.
I miss RO (lol).

Nyahhhh~~ *runs around* And when school starts, I'm gonna miss my computer. Heh. Farewell sanity, partly kidding.

Anddddddddddddd~ random quiz thingy stolen off Seth-chan. I'm bored, but I need to fix my stuff for school soon.. TOMORROW'S THE LAST DAY OF MY VACATION AAAAAAAAAAAAAAH *dies*.

Four things you would do if you were a millionaire?
# Travel around the world
# Splurge on stuff I really wanted
# ANIME STUFFS WOOT
# Cosplay?

Four bad habits?
# Lazy
# Computer addict~ hoho
# Being too sensitive (is that a habit?)
# Drinking too much coffee

Four things you like doing?
# Watching anime
# Listening to music
# Drawing (when I'm motivated)
# Going online

Four things you would never buy, wear or get?
# Daring clothing. Tube tops, miniskirts, etc.
# Cigarettes.
# Any alcoholic drink.
# Anything that would make people think that I'm too girly or so.

Four favourite things?
# Computer
# iPod
# cellphone
# internet card. so I can go online ~_~

Okay, done. XD;; Gawd I need a life.

Anyway.... now, excuse me while I angst a little more. ~.~ And reminisce... and stuff. I need to contemplate, lol~~~~ *walks off*

Random quizzy.

2006-06-13T10:01:00.000+08:00

[mood | full]
[music | Gensomaden Saiyuki - Bad Friends (Sanzo & Gojyo)]

Snagged off Talia's blog~~ since I'm bored. Almost.. no one.. is online today =_= Most of them are in school, nyah.

Put your player on shuffle, and for each question, you press "next"........ something like that. You know the drill. ~_~

How are you feeling today?
Kimi ga ita Scene - Cardcaptor Sakura (Kinomoto Touya)
Peaceful, I guess. Although it's more like bored =_=

Will you get far in life?
Promise - Yakitate! Japan
O_o I will get far in life. I... PROMISE. XD *whacked*

How do your friends see you?
Shaft Drive - Gene Shaft
Uhhhh =_= a weird girl who likes to dress in black / dress as a punk during non-uniform days?

Will you get married?
Dress - Trinity Blood
I WILL GET MARRIED IN A DRESS! WTF?! =_= Maybe, maybe not.

What is your best friend's theme song?
True Light (Acoustic Version) - DNAngel
Whaaaa? *blinks* Jeddy is angsty too?! No way. *gasps* XD

What is the story of your life?
Sara - BoA
=_= A tale of mystery and eccentricity, I guess.

What was high school like?
Yakusoku [featuring Kamui] - X/1999
A SHITLOAD OF ANGST!!! AHAHAHAHA XD *poses* ... =_=

How can you get ahead in life?
Lilium (Saint Version) - Elfen Lied
Huh? O_o Maybe I'll get ahead in life if I join a choir and start chanting random stuff. Just kidding. *whacked*

What is the best thing about your friends?
Kimi ni makenai youni - Grander Musashi
AHAHAHA O_o *blinks* they don't like to lose =_=' I guess.

What is today going to be like?
Overlap - Yugioh
An overlap of events........ HUH?! O_O

What is in store for this weekend?
The Rage Beat - Gravitation
=_= Rage? Maybe, because WE HAVE SATURDAY CLASSES AAAAAAAAAHHHHH AND I WON'T BE ABLE TO COSPLAY AT TOYCON AAAAAAAAAHHH *rampages*

What song describes you?
Spirits Dream Inside - L'arc~en~Ciel
o.o I'm falling apart... Will everything change?...

To describe your grandparents?
Are you feeling fine? - L'arc~en~Ciel
lol. XD that's what I should ask my bedridden grandmother now. "are you feeling fine?" XD *whacked*

How is your life going?
Perfect World - Fushigi Yuugi
"Perfect"? Nah. It's not. Angsty, like the song? Yes. XD

What song will they play at your funeral?
Viva Rock ~Japanese Side~ - Naruto
WTF. O_O A HAPPY SONG O: OMG. *gasps* XD ahaha, amusing. *laughs* XD!!!

How does the world see you?
Stargazers - Nightwish
same song as mom/Talia? o.o .... *sings* "Tragiedienne of heavens, watching the eyes of the night..."

Will you have a happy life?
Mizerable - Gackt
...does the song title answer your question? :3

What do your friends really think of you?
Creeping Death - Apocalyptica
o_o creepy? *gasps* really? O_o lol~

Do people secretly lust after you?
Cheer Song - Beyblade
=_= is it just me or this song is telling me to "cheer" for I am being lusted after?O_o ...nevermind XD

How can I make myself happy?
What's Up Guys? - Bakuretsu Hunter
Uhhhh... listen to this song? XD it's upbeat after all.

What should you do with your life?
Blow Up - Seki Tomokazu and Hoshi Souichiro
*sings* "Dare ni mo jamasasenai"... don't let anyone disturb me? o.o *whacked*

Will you ever have children?
Precious Rose - Gundam Seed (Cagalli Yula Athha)
O_o whaaa? *blinks* I'll have a girl? What? *blinks again*

I'm a seme. Fear me. LOL XD

2006-06-09T13:26:00.000+08:00

[mood | okay]
[music | Mai Otome - Hoshi ga Kanaderu Monogatari]

Yay, driving school's over XD lol.
And I'm happy to say that.. I somewhat know how to drive now... all I need now is to get used to the traffic here in Manila. XD

Took a quiz too, although I think I took this before. o_O My previous result was uke... and now.. I got "promoted". HAHAHAHA I'M A SEMEEEEEEE XD *runs around*

Are you a Seme or Uke?

Random tagged quizzy again xD

2006-06-07T14:11:00.000+08:00

[mood | relaxed]
[music | Crystal Kay - Kirakuni]

Ehhh~ I forgot that Talia tagged me. XD Sooo I'm doing it now. *ahem*

3 schools I went to:
-Sta. Isabel College
-St. Paul College Paranaque
-St. Paul University Manila

3 things in my bag:
-cellphone
-wallet
-iPod XD

3 things I do when I'm stressed:
-listen to music
-rant on my blog
-angst?

3 places I go to on a daily basis:
-school (soon) :P
-Starbucks :P
-I dunno

3 favourite fruits:
-strawberries
-mango
-kiwi fruit [with condensed milk on it]

3 names I go by:
-Angeli/Angel
-Meira
-Rey

3 things I am wearing right now:
-a white t-shirt with the RO "priestess, heal bomb" on it
-blue pants
-underwear, duh. XD

Who is in the house with me:
-my parents
-my bedridden grandma
-our maids

Who am I thinking of right now:
-Talia/kaa-san XD
-my guildmates
-Radu Barvon :P

Who did I last talk to on the phone:
-my dad
-my mom
-I dunno

Who do I sit with during my 5th period in class:
-we don't have class as of the moment XD

Who was the last person I uttered love:
-I dunno.

Who do I wish I am with right now:
-I dunno too ^^;;;

Who gets on my nerves most in school:
-I dunno
-it depends
-... :P

Where is my phone:
-it's on the table behind me. XD

Where do I sleep:
-parent's room =_="

Where is the place I took a ride to:
-huh?

What was the last thing I ate:
-a banana. ^^;

What color of shirt am I wearing:
-white

What is the closest item to me that is blue:
-my computer table XD

What do I like most about school:
-the school is located near a mall. 8D

What is my favourite colour:
-blue
-violet
-black
-green?

What do I wear most often, jeans or shorts:
-jeans

What was the last movie I watched:
-do movies on vcd/dvd count?...FFVII:AC.

When did I start school:
-sometime during the 1990's. XD

When did I last go to the mall:
-yesterday

When did I last burn something:
-dunno

3 bloggers to do this:
-Jeddy
-Jeni
-anyone else? :P

Of late updates and weird dreams =.=

2006-06-07T12:07:00.000+08:00

[mood | weird]
[music | L'arc~en~Ciel - Honey]

Forgot to update some stuff about the times wherein we were... phone-less. Well. It was ultimate boredom, nyah XD Although I was able to watch FFVII: Advent Children, because of boredom. Nyah. Me love Yazoo. Haha. XD *whacked* I seem to have a fetish for long-haired bishies. *coughcoughblameIsaakcoughcough* Nyah~ I also watched Forbidden Love, episode 1 and 2 on DVD (I'm not sure since there's no ending theme o_O I watched for 1 hour, so I'm assuming). Nyah.

It's ironic, nyah~~ kaa-san (Talia) was looking for the DVD/VCDs, and it's only now that I found them AFTER our trip to Singapore. =_= Mou, I dunno how to send it to you, kaa-san~ since it's pirated and I doubt that the people at the post office would let me send something pirated XD Nyah~

Oh and I got to enroll too. Good thing I wasn't listening to what [insert terran name here] said. She said that we can't enroll for that day, so she told me to come back on the next day and stuff. I dunno, I wasn't really listening at that time since I was determined that I can enroll~ and besides, [insert terran name again] almost ruined my eardrums, lol. I was talking to her on the phone then some sort of high-pitched sound interfered with the line. It was like SCREEEEEEEEEEECCCCHHH!!!! =_= Mou. It really hurt my ears, nyah. But anyway, I was able to enroll. Hah. Thanks to my mom too for helping me, and letting me write on the check/cheque of doom. XD!

Okay, enough with the phone-less update thingy. I'm here to post about one thing: DREAMS. *breathes* Nyah~~

Maybe it's the reason why I woke up sooooo late today. I woke up at around 1:45 am last night, and I woke up at 5:45 am. Then at 7:45 am, then 9:45 am. It's weird that I keep waking up when the clock has its minute hand on 9 (meaning, 45). o_O

Anyways, I think I had a bunch of dreams last night o_O I had around 3, but I can only remember the two (although the second one's a bit too blurry, too). The last one's a bit too blurry... Anyway, one of them is the weirdest. And I must say, the scariest... well kinda. XD Nyah. I think it's a dream that was coinciding with the 6-6-06 thingy.

So it goes like this..... *type-away mode, on*

Dream 1
I was driving (yes, it's ME driving, woot) through some sort of bridge (it looked like the Skyway here in the Philippines) on a stormy/rainy night... My parents and our two maids (although I can't remember seeing the maids) were in the car too, and we're going to some place (which I can't remember where)... and then all of a sudden, I realized that we were going down some sort of slope, and it was slippery... and I can't see the road ahead because of the heavy rain. So I just steered(?) to the extreme left... and for some weird reason, we ended up "parking" in front of a weird structure..... which is a *cough* gothic-type of CHURCH. With a graveyard beside/around it. o___o

We were at its gates, and on the gate were the words "Rozenkreuz", in gold-plated metal/letters/whatever. And me, being the RCO fangirl that I am, I was thrilled to see that word =.= but I was quite scared because I was like "RCO in real life? Oh my." ...so yeah, we were staring at the letters and then we noticed that the gate was open. And then we also saw a bunch of people outside the so-called "church", with their respective cars (that were "parked" as well).

So yeh, we went in, sat down at the pews, and then we heard the organ playing... o_o It was freaky, nyah. I was expecting to see Isaak Fernand von Kampfer in the scene, but all I saw was this: an undead corpse that was dressed like Francesco di Medici. o.O And I looked at his face, and... it was scary. *falls over*

I was bothered by that, but I still tried to keep calm since I can still see "normal" people around us... and then while I was looking around, I saw a bunch of kids that looked like streetchildren. They were filthy, but I didn't mind since it's not the first time I saw filthy people... but the thing that made me freak out was the color of their skin. Well, it was kinda weird. It was neither pale nor green-ish.... I dunno. Just think of the skin color of the child in the Nightwish "Highest Hopes - The Best of Nightwish" album... so yeh.

I totally freaked out upon realizing that those "kids" weren't really "normal"... and I freaked out some more when I saw them lurking behind normal people's backs. It's like they're attempting to bite them, or something.

So yeah, some people realized/noticed what I saw too, and they started panicking. And most of us (I think) started heading out for the door... and suddenly, a whole bunch of corpses appeared. They were all dressed in black, in tuxedos, gowns and stuff. o_o And they were running after us "normal" people, nyah. It was freaky, they kept chanting about something like "we want your bodies".. and stuff. Nyah.

In the middle of the chaos, someone appeared, dressed in white. Although I must say that she looked like Sadako... o_____O but anyway, she scattered/gave us "normal" people some papers, and told us to fill it up before we leave. I dunno, it was weird... but we filled the form up anyway. While I was filling up the form, I can feel her (yes, the Sadako-ish female) hand rubbing my back. Although I must say, it was a *cough* kind rub. And she was... well... kind. o_O Although her loooooong hair was still freaking me out like hell.

The form had something like "we, _____, are never going back to this place again, or we shall face the consequences..." O_o But I dunno, I think it was forbidden to go to that place. But then again, I saw my dad there experiencing a consequence O.O He had his right (or was it left?) leg chopped off, like how Edward in FMA lost his left leg. I was worried and I immediately finished filling up the form (and gave it to the Sadako-ish female), and then I ran off to dad to support him and help him walk. And for some weird reason, all I uttered was "Don't worry dad, we can still have your automail". It was weird. LOL.

So yeh, after that, I woke up... at 1:45 am. =_=" And... I noticed that upon waking up, I noticed that my iPod (yes, I listen to my iPod while sleeping XD) started playing songs like "True Light", "Requiem", "Rinne no hate ni"... and the like. =_= Man, it took me a while before got back to sleep.

Dream 2
This dream's not really clear, but all I remember is having .. well, class. There's this professor who is annoying and doesn't listen to us complaining about the HEAVY load of schoolwork that she gave. o_O And.. there's this other professor (I think he's a guy) who... is annoying as well. But I can't remember what was he doing, nyah.

And... for some reason, some of my classmates (some from HS, some from college) were there too. o_O I can't remember them all, but all I remembered was Grethel sitting beside me, singing to the song "Arashi ga Oka" o_O it's weird, considering that she's not really an anime fan and all... *shrugs* Oh well.

---So yeh, that's it about dreams =.= Now I need to take a bath since we're gonna practice driving around the subdivision and stuff. XD! *runs off*

Ah. Nothing to say, but I'm posting. XD

2006-06-06T22:20:00.000+08:00

[mood | tired]
[music | silence]

Mou. Finally, after how many days. The phone is fixed -_- Darn terrans, stealing the WHOLE subdivision's phone line and all... *sigh* and darn terran phone company for being so slow in fixing/replacing the phone lines =___= *gawks*

Although it's quite unfortunate, since the phone got fixed just as I am about to venture into busy-ness. =_= I got driving lessons this week, and I doubt I'd be able to go online all day~ Oh well. I hope to "learn" anyway. XD

Nyah. Tomorrow's practice-driving day with Dad.. *sigh* I hope to get the hang of it~ I mean, get the hang of driving with an automatic transmission vehicle... lol.

Mou~~ feeling too lazy to type more =.= And I'm too tired as well. It's tiring to run around all day (not literally, duh), trying to apply for the student driver's permit and all =.= Nyah.

I just really REALLY hope that I'd be able to drive smoothly. =.= It's MANILA, after all. As they say, "If you can drive in Manila, then you can drive anywhere in the world". =.= Well Manila is known for its traffic, anyways.

Maaa~ I'll leave it at that. Good luck to me, lol. And I hope that someone would remind me NOT to take any coffee tomorrow, and on Thursday, and on Friday =.= So my nervousness won't get ahead of me. But I doubt that XDDDD

They said that the student/driver must be physically and mentally stable. Heh, I dunno if I'm mentally stable, lol. Nevermind XD

And .. lastly, before I end this post...
I got to watch "Kyou Kara Maou" on Animax tonight... and I must say, it's interesting. XD I like Gunter, he's like the lovechild of Abel and Cain o_O *whacked*

Maa~ I'll go now XD Bye~~

TB Taroooootttttt~~

2006-06-01T14:05:00.000+08:00

[mood | content]
[music | Apocalyptica - M.B.]

Ahahahaha. I'm really obsessed with TB *gasp* First I made a bunch of TB mood icons, now I made a bunch of TB Tarot Avatars! XD Ahahaha.

Nyaah~ we're supposed to go to school today, nyah. But my dad needs to attend a meeting... so he can't bring me to school now. Nyah. I hope they accept late enrollees XD I heard that only students from our college/department (College of Business and Management) are allowed to enroll today. Haha.

Nyarr~ kinda worried, but what the heck. XD

I just noticed that my posts are getting shorter and shorter~ haha. I'm such a lazy arse. X3
But I really want to go out and have some Starbucks coffee. @_@ Nyah~

Woooo, TB-ness. Fwahaha~

2006-05-31T11:16:00.000+08:00

[mood | accomplished]
[music | L'arc~en~Ciel - Finale]

Hahaha. I'm such a lazy person. Oh well.
I was supposed to post about our "trip to Singapore" yesterday, but I'm really feeling lazy. Haha. Oh well.

I made a whole bunch of Trinity Blood icons, nyah. Yeh, I'm obsessed. Wahahaha.
I want to post this at the TB Community at LJ, but nyah, I'm not using a paid account. Hmmm. *thinks* Maybe later.

Nyah.

2006-05-30T09:38:00.000+08:00

[mood | hungry]
[music | Apocalyptica - Refuse/Resist]

Nyaah. Short post, feeling too lazy to update. ~_~;
So yeh, we're back from Singapore... uhhhhh I'll post later. Too lazy.

By the way, kaa-san/Talia, here are the links for downloading the mp3 I was telling you about. They're password-protected, just ask me for the password later nyah. ^^

Apocalyptica - For Whom the Bell Tolls
Apocalyptica - Master of Puppets

That's all for now XD Jaa~

My costuuuuuuuuumeeee whines

2006-05-24T15:19:00.000+08:00

[mood | bitchy]
[music | Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicle - Ship of Fools]

Nyaaaaaaaah~ my mom just said that we'd be sleeping early tonight, because we're going early tomorrow for the flight. I'm not complaining though, since I just realized some stuff about my costume... And that's what I want to bitch complain about... Nyah. XD I know it's not the right time to bitch about it, but I feel like bitching about it now, before I forget.

Other than the pocket-that-is-not-really-a-pocket-because-it-doesn't-have-a-damned-pocket thingy, I also realized that my coat's a bit too long. XD Bleargh, just as I thought. I was whining about it at the tailors but my mom was all like "OHHH NO. NO EDITING FROM YOU, DEAR." =.=
She talked as if she knew the costume better than me, dammit. And to think that she does NOT watch TB, nor does she STARE at Isaak's costume/pics and such. Bleargh. Oh and I also realized (during the house photoshoot) that I tend to step on my coat while going up the stairs.... NYAH.

*snorts* OMG, this *points to self* Isaak's wearing a RCO GOWN. HAHAHA. Just kidding. *gets whacked, bricked and clobbered by Isaak fans*

But really ;_; it's too long!!! Nyah. Look at this cosplayer's costume, she really looks like Isaak. AND HER COAT IS NOT LONG, AND FOR SURE SHE WON'T STEP ON IT, unlike me. *sighs* And look, YOU CAN SEE HER BOOTS!!! I can rarely see my boots with mine. =_= Mou, I want her coat, nyah. *whacked*

I'm getting a lot of TB cosplay pics these days O_o 3 of which, are... well... pretty and good enough to be eyecandy. X3

Maybe I'll have the LOOOONG coat edited/fixed sometime after the trip to Singapore, but I doubt it'll happen since my parents keep on bitching about cosplaying and we'd be...... let's say, quite broke after the trip. XD

Nyarr. Almost done packing, for the nth time, nyah. No, really. I'm almost done. Yay.

...Gawd, Seth-chan's "nyah"s are contagious. But then again, they're from Talia/kaa-san... so yeh. XD Nevermind.

Totally bored now but I'm feeling bitchy at the same time nyah. I just did Jeni's layout for her Gaia page and also her blog, and... it's totally Abel-ish. Well, can't blame her, she's hooked on Abel now. Wait, that sounded wrong. XD I showed her some Abel pics last night, and I think she really likes him (Abel) now. O_o She even "dumped" Muraki because of it. XD Nyah, can't blame her since she likes silver-haired bishies, nyah.

And I can't help but feel amused since... if Jeni's gonna use her Abel layout, then it's almost like we're using a "pair" layout. Why? Because my current layout is Cain, and her layout will be Abel~ see the connection? No? Nevermind, nyah.

Still bored... nyarrrh. I want to do something. But what? O_o Nyah.

OMG. I see a TB cosplayer. O:

2006-05-24T10:03:00.000+08:00

[mood | surprised]
[music | Nightwish - Creek Mary's Blood]

Haha, too bad, I wasn't able to attend the event last Sunday... I could've gained one "friend", haha. XD Wala lang, natuwa kasi ako eh.

So yeh, according to my friend Jeni, there's a TB cosplayer in the event. He (I assume he's a he since he looks like a guy O_o) ish cosplaying Abel, anime version. Haha XD He did a decent job although his sideburns(?) are kinda long. XD

When Jeni told me about it, I was expecting he'd cosplay the artbook version of Abel since it looks more cool. :P But I guess it's kinda hard with the armors and all...

But still, I'm amused. Haha. Especially with the gun.

LOOKIE :P IT'S ABEL, AND SAKURA! ^^ lol.
And no, that's not me. I wasn't in the event, bleargh.

Nyarrr. It's sad that I wasn't there. We could've made some sort of photoshoot with one another. :P Or maybe, act out TB episode 8, hahaha. *whacked*

Still amused. Although it's really sad I wasn't there. XD It's good to know a fellow TB fan, especially if he's a Filipino as well. Kabayan, ika nga.

Anyway, we'll be leaving for Singapore tomorrow. XD Nyaa~ and I'm almost done with my packing, yay.

Nyarrgh. Wasted effort, bleargh.

2006-05-23T19:25:00.000+08:00

[mood | annoyed]
[music | Mai-hime - Mezame]

Nyaa, just one day more, before we go to Singapore! lol that rhymed ahahahaha. Just a little more packing and I'm ready nyaa~

Anyway, that's not my main rant at the moment... so.. yeh.
*breathes* AAAARRRGGGHHHHHHHHHHH~!!!! ...terrans.

Just as I thought, terrans are inconsistent. Indeed. For they have suddenly announced that the deadline for the National Cosplay Competition is extended.

Bleargh, talk about wasted effort.

Well it's not really wasted, although I can't help but feel frustrated because I really exerted effort to complete the costume in time for the deadline and all.. *sigh* Oh well.

I guess I can't do anything about it anymore since I already submitted my entry =_=" Bleargh. XD

Busy busy busy~ XD

2006-05-22T12:18:00.000+08:00

[mood | busy]
[music | Maaya Sakamoto - High Touch]

Nyarr. Just a little more costume-accessory-making... and I'm done. =_=" Although I must say that it's... not that good, since I had to make these in.. *cough* a hard way. But it's quite resourceful, I must say. Oh well~

Waiting for the armband thingy to be dry now, haha. Then I'll ask my mother to sew it into its armband form. Haha. Nyarr.

So yesterday we went out too, to find someone to patch the RCO logo and also the pentagram/s for the gloves. Well, we found one, but we turned down the offer since it was TOO EXPENSIVE. Heck, it's even more expensive than the costume itself =_=" So yeh. All I did is well~ Print out the RCO logo and stick it to the costume XD;;; And as for the gloves, I just used this fabric paint thingy to paint on the gloves. XD;;; Nyarrgh~ it looks so icky. XD And to think that the gloves that I got are.. well.. gloves that look like Dietrich's o.O;;; Bleargh. I hope the judges for the national cosplay competition won't notice this =_=" I wanna win hahahaha XD *whacked*

Oh and before I forget~~~~ I got a new digicaaaaaaaaam~~ yay! *dances around*

Anyway. *cough*

Maybe, just maybe, I'd still look for someone who's willing to patch the logos and stuff for a cheap price (if I have free time). Well, if I'm going to the next cosplay competition, that is. XD I wanna go to the Toycon Cosplay thingy on June 17-18, although I'm still not sure about it since we already have classes at that time. And we'll be facing the subject of doom which is Accounting, again. I wanna go, although I'm kinda hesitant too since I'm cosplaying solo XD

*screeches* Ish there any Filipino out there who's cosplaying Trinity Blood this coming Toycon Cosplay?! I need company, haha XD! *whacked*

Nyarrgh~ I can't wait to get to Singapore for the photoshoot of doom. XD I dunno. Maybe it really feels different since I know someone from there o.o *whacked*

Mou~ we're still going out today. We're going to school to enroll =.=" I hope they allow early enrollments. XD Aaaand I hope I'd get to buy coffee *_* Nyaaa~ Banana Caramel Frappuchino *_* It's great, although I can't tell why most of my friends (wait! do I have friends?) don't like the taste. Oh well.

And~~ lastly~ there's this image that keeps haunting appearing in my mind. Well, it's a layout XD I feel like making it now but I don't have much time. I still need to finish the accessories, then have a photoshoot at the living room haha, and submit my entry for the competition. And I also need to pack my stuff for Singapore, nyarr.

Okay, that's all, haha. XD Bye~~

Nyarr. Again.

2006-05-20T21:45:00.000+08:00

[mood | indescribable]
[music | Loveless - Michiyuki]

Short short post.
Okay, so I ended up angsting as well, at the end of the day. Oh well... it's good, lol. It's been a long time since I last angsted.

XD I'm so weird. First I'm happy, now angsty, what's next? Angry? XD
Nyarr. So I wasn't able to make any accessories today, except for a cross (made out of CORKBOARD). Although I'll be making a better one tomorrow since... since... I bought better stuff. And I'll be using a cardboard now, lol.

Nyarr~ I seriously need discipline for tomorrow. Digicam shopping, although I dunno if it'll push through. But I need to spend my time tomorrow doing the pins of doom. And the pentagram(?) of doom, for the gloves. Aaaaand the patches of doom.

So, yeh, the text thingy for the cuffs ish not a problem anymore~ it's already done by the tailor/s. X3 So all I need to do tomorrow are:
-make the 5 pins (2 for inner shirt, 2 for outer, and 1 for the necktie)
-make the cross that's gonna be put at the left pocket
-make the patches (for left and right sleeve) on cloth
-make pentagrams(?) for gloves
-GET THE DAMNED AUTO-LOCK BELT TO OPEN(!!!)

Bleargh. Lots of things to dooooo~ must.not.hog.computer.tomorrow. Period.
Nyarr~ gonna sleep now. Parents yelling, haha X3 Must be obedient and all because they got me the costume~ hahaha X3 *runs off to angst*

OMGOMGOMGOMG SQUEEE~

2006-05-20T19:32:00.000+08:00

[mood | enthralled]
[music | Yakitate! Japan - Promise]

I know no one cares about my but I just have to post this.....

OMGOMGOMG MY COSTUME IS NOW FINISHEEEEEEEEEDDDD!!!! XDXDXDXDXDXDXDXD
TIME TO MAKE THE ACCESSORIES! WOOOOOO~!!!!!

Nyarr.

2006-05-20T07:42:00.000+08:00

[mood | excited]
[music | Trinity Blood - Krusnik]

Waiting for breakfast now. After this I'll take a bath and then head out to the world outside!!! XD lol.

Shopping-for-stuff-for-my-costume-accessories day. And~ perhaps, it can be a splurge-on-stuff day too, oh well.

Still can't wait. And I hope we can get to the tailors too, since they said that my costume is almost finished, nyarr. X3 Isaak-sama~

And on a random note, I'm kinda worried about my Gaia friend Klingeth. She's on brb on YM since... what, last night o_o; I dunno. But she's not idle. I dunno. Gwaaah~

Okay, enough nonsense. Jaa. XD

Of planned photoshoots, a terran's lame excuse for an introduction, and... cosplay!

2006-05-19T17:18:00.000+08:00

[mood | ...bleargh.]
[music | Sona - Reach for the Sky]

Stupid me, closing the window without saving my post as a draft. Bleargh. Now I have to type again~ Oh well. X3

So, yeh. My parents told me that.. they're alloting a free day for our stay/tour/whatever in Singapore, in order for me and Talia to spend some time together. And... *hyperventilates* SQUEEEEEEEEEE!!! I can't wait to have the photoshoot of doom!!!! X3

Bleargh. X3 Anyway, something random happened awhile ago ~_~ Well this terran suddenly texted me and asked if I can be his/her textmate. And being the bish that I am I just told him/her to back off. Well, in a TB-ish way, lol. *coughcough* It went like this:

Part 1
texter: hi. can u be my txtm8?
me: *didn't reply*
texter: *calls*
me: *ignores phone*
texter: *stops for a few minutes, calls again*
me: *TWITCH ... ignores phone for a few seconds, then starts texting* Good afternoon, terran. Will you please stop bugging me, for I have better things to do. I do not wish to be disturbed.
texter: you don't like to. disturb you. it's okay. nick smith, I am.
me: *laughs, then texts again* What? Pardon me for I do not understand what you've just texted.

And, after a few minutes... I got the biggest shock of my life-- wait, no, I just felt embarrassed when I found out. lol

Part 2
texter: hehe. what's your lunch?
me: *gawks irl* What? Sorry, I seriously think you should text another number. This is just a waste of my time.
texter: (in Tagalog) no, really, what's your lunch?
me: *gawks again irl* Please text someone else...
texter: hehe, it's me, Vina!
me: *almost fell off her chair irl* HUH?!?!
texter: your new maid. gotcha there! :)
me: *didn't reply; because was actually gawking irl*

So yeh, so much for a lame and annoying "getting to know you" session. Of all the things to introduce herself, it just had to be this. Bleargh.

Anyway. X3 Moving on to part three of my entry... cosplay!

It's already Friday, lol. And just a few days more before I get to have my costume X3 *squees* Although I still need to work on random accessories for my Isaak costume. The problem is, I dunno how to do them. o_o

Feeeh, I need to start working =_= Because the deadline of entries for the cosplay competition is on the 23rd... and I still need to have a little photoshoot. But I don't have a choice but to have it here at home since I'm not allowed to go out. Bleargh.

So yeh. Accessories @_@ Bleargh. Need to go shopping tomorrow, dammit.
Here's a list of what I need to cram for:
-2 pins (for the shirt) = the "star" and the rose cross
-2 pins (for the black shirt, or should we say the coat O_O)
-the patch thingy for the right sleeve (the eagle thingy)
-the patch thingy for the left sleeve (the cross and ram thingy)
-the armband. YES THE ARMBAND @_@ HOW AM I GOING TO THIS?!?!?!
-the patch thingy for the glove/s.
-and the.. *cough* the text for the cuffs(?) or so.

Yes, I still have a lot to do but here I am, lazing away on my compie. XD Haha.

OMFG I sooo admire the tailor's skills. XD

2006-05-17T19:26:00.000+08:00

[mood | giddy]
[music | Gankutsuou (The Count of Monte Cristo) on TV/Animax]

Just got home. Got caught in the 5pm traffic, lol~ but oh well.

We got to go to the tailor this afternoon. Whee~ and... I'm so giddy because of it. XD
The costume's looking gooooooood~ X3 although it still needs the buttons and stuff. And the patches, and the belt, and the armband~ *goes on and on* Can't help but feel giddy because it just looked so... amusing? Cool? lol I dunno what word to use. XD
But I must say, he really did a good job. And~ I must say that my money- no, my dad's money, didn't go to waste. XD;

Although it's quite clear that my mom's still... awkward when she sees me wearing the trenchcoat/costume. XD She's always like "O_o gawd, I don't have the courage to wear something like that". XD Well, actually, I don't, if I'm forced to wear it in school (duh). But for cosplay, it's fiiiiiiiiiine~ XD

Squee, I want the costume to be finished soon. Can't wait~~ squee XDDDDD!!!

Oh and I got the info for our flight to Singapore~ We're leaving on the 25th... gwaaah~ I'm still hoping I get to see mom (my online mom, okay?). XD Squeee~

Okay, that's all for now~ I shall be off while I squee some more. X3 *runs off happily*

... =_=

2006-05-16T16:39:00.000+08:00

[mood | confused]
[music | Nightwish - Creek Mary's Blood]

Bleargh. Confused, like hell~ =_=

My friends from highschool just told me that they are STILL going to the event on Sunday (May 21)... and... I'm still not going because my parents didn't allow me to. Gah. And... I really want to go, cosplay or no cosplay but I prefer to cosplay since I don't think I have much time to make a darn photoshoot around the house.

They're gonna meet up and stuff, have some fun, and do some work on the manga(?) that they've been working on since highschool. So... yeh.

Oh, I dunno... I still wanna go, of course. But fate is cruel, indeed.

And~ time is ticking. Just a few days more and we get to go to Singapore~~ ^o^ Although I'm still hoping that I'd get to see my online mom, Talia~ and maybe have a photoshoot? I dunno.

I honestly don't know. Haha. Still confused.

Should I ask my parents again? But I'm afraid I'd be getting the same answer... =_=
...WAAAAH!!!! *runs around, panicking* I WANNA GO DAMMIT!

I just noticed... I.. always get some "conflicts" when it comes to anime cons/events. I dunno, I'm sure this is NOT the first time this happened. *shrugs*

Pffft.

Random update nyaa.

2006-05-15T22:22:00.000+08:00

[mood | calm]
[music | Radu Barvon - Succession of Witches]

Squee, haven't updated in a long time. *looks at the previous entry's date* But.. maybe not. XD;
Errrmm nothing special has happened since Saturday night~ I did nothing but eat, sleep, stay in front of the computer. lol. Aaaaaaaand I also had some short TB roleplays that ended up as something that Cain Knightlord will NOT like and~ I also made a bunch of "improved" TB avatars.

Sooo yeh. My life is boring ~_~ lol.
Dunno what to say, really... Just thought of updating randomly, lol. XD Jaa~~

Disappointment + contentment = I dunno.

2006-05-13T22:10:00.000+08:00

[mood | lazy]
[music | Guilty Gear XX - Holy Orders (Be Just Or Be Dead)]

Bleargh. Updating at.. past 10pm, lol. I know I'm gonna get clobbered by my parents later, but what the hell.

I don't mind being scolded now since it's only the three of us in the house- oh wait, make that four. Since my grandmother's here even though she is bedridden and she does nothing but complain about how people take care of her and stuff.

Nyaa. So much for anticipating for getting to go to the event at the Mall of Asia on May 21. I was supposed to go, but my parents suddenly changed their minds... =_=" Oh well. Blame our maid for having to go home... oh well.

So yeh. I guess I won't be seeing my friends from the Ichi forum who wanted to see me since I wasn't able to attend the grand EB of the forum, and also Jeddy and the others... since they were supposed to go too. Ah well.

I guess I can't do anything about it =_=" After all, they had a point. But, do I always have to be chaperoned? I mean, look, I'm turning 18, and I should more or less learn NOW how to be independent and stuff. Oh well. That's why I don't feel like holding a debut party since I don't feel like a young adult AT ALL. Heck, I feel like a gradeschooler who needs to be "watched" all the time, dammit.

Ah well. I still wanna go, even if my costume isn't done/complete yet. It's not mainly for the cosplay anyway, since I can always make a photoshoot somewhere in the house and submit it to the National Cosplay Competition before the 23rd of May... *sigh* I wanna see my friends. *sigh* Really. I miss their company.

Ah, fate. Why must you be cruel? And to think that I already hoped; only to find out that I'd be disappointed in the end.

...Well, not really, because I got to order my Isaak costume at the tailor today. Yay. *dances* Although I still need a belt. And the buttons. lol.

Nyaa. I need to sleep now, my parents are gonna kill me. XD But the coffee is taking effect again... so I'm not feeling so sleepy anymore. XD; Yep, I bought a venti AGAIN, awhile ago. Gah. I need to save money so I can splurge on stuff when we get to Singapore. XD

Speaking of Singapore, our "trip" there is confirmed. Yay~
Although it's not certain as to when are we gonna go there.

Beauty and the Beast

2006-05-12T12:41:00.000+08:00

[mood | nostalgic]
[music | Nightwish - Beauty and the Beast]

Remember the first dance we shared?
Recall the night you melted my uglyness away?
The night you left with a kiss so kind
Only a scent of beauty left behind

Ah, dear friend I remember the night
The moon and the dreams we shared
Your trembling paw in my hand
Dreaming of that northern land
Touching me with a kiss of a beast

I know my dreams are made of you
Of you and only for you
Your ocean pulls me under
Your voice tears me asunder
Love me before the last petal falls

As a world without a glance
Of the ocean's fair expanse
Such the world would be
If no love did flow in thee
But as my heart is occupied
Your love to me now has to die
Forgive me, I need more than you can offer me

Didn't you read the tale
Where happily ever after was to kiss a frog?
Don't you know this tale
In which all I ever wanted
I'll never have
For who could ever learn to love a beast?

However cold the wind and rain
I'll be there to ease up your pain
However cruel the mirrors of sin
Remember, beauty is found within

Forever shall the wolf in me desire the sheep in you...

Terrans. Pffffft.

2006-05-12T10:44:00.000+08:00

[mood | mellow]
[music | Trinity Blood OST - Tenderness]

It's raining now. In the middle of summer o_o Nice. Gray skies, and rain pouring... it brings melody to my ears. Unfortunately, the melody of the rain is coming to an end now, and the gray skies are slowly drifting into nothingness...
...Bleargh. Forgot to update yesterday~~ lol. I was supposed to update but the net shop I was in had a power outage =_=" so everything that I typed went to nothing.

So... yeh. The exams are finished, yay~~ Although I must say that I'm not that confident with the exams, especially with Biology and Filipino -_-" Gawd. My parents are going to kill me. XD Although I'm not telling them that I have an 84 YET. Since... they might not allow me to cosplay and stuff. *shrugs*

Anyway, nothing special happened yesterday, although I must say that yesterday was a day of total (and I mean TOTAL) money-splurging.

I took two Venti(s), from Starbucks... and each cost 165. I likewise bought a chocolate chip cookie, also from Starbucks, which cost 50 pesos. After that, me and my friends had lunch... and I spent 82 pesos for my lunch. So that's a total of 462 pesos... and I only had 500 pesos as my allowance for the day. But I only had what, 20 pesos left. I'm supposed to still have 38 pesos left. Now, where did the 18 pesos go? *thinks* Oh, yes, they're in the coin pocket of my wallet.

So~ yeh. Other than that, I also "used" my extra 500 pesos, which is supposed to be for emergency reasons. (So I carry 1000 pesos in my wallet) I rarely, very VERY rarely, use my extra 500 pesos, unless my allowance is not enough and stuff.

Actually, the highlight of my irritation for yesterday was this... Why? Because, I used this for "helping" one of our classmates... And my parents were mad at me for helping her. What is wrong with that?! I mean, I was still able to eat (and have coffee) anyway, so what's wrong with that?! Besides, it's not like I'm giving away the money, dammit. I'm just not sure when I'll get my payment back since we don't have classes anymore, and we're going to meet up again at May 22 (for pre-registration and stuff), most probably.

Well it goes like this, one of our classmates almost had her exam discredited(?) because she wasn't fully paid and stuff. She still had a debt of 7k pesos. She's the only one in the class who is not fully paid, so I guess you can say that it was quite embarrasing and frustrating. Then after the exam in Filipino (which I shotgunned, more or less), the class had agreed to help her out.

And eventually we got to collect 7k. Woot. I contributed 500 (I was quite hesitant at first, but then again, I was too kind), my friend Barbara contributed 500, and my classmate Berna contributed 2000 (wow). I forgot the others who contributed, but yeh we were able to collect 7k. From the class.

So that's about it... we got to help her pay the debt, so she's happy and thankful, after that. Although I'm still annoyed at my parents for scolding me about it... oh well.

Will update later, hopefully. XD *feeling lazy*