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The Magician

Meira Kurosaki. Xedosarthea. Rey Za Burrel Barvon. Female, born on May 27, 1988. Loves anime / manga, coffee, going online, lazing around, yaoi, shounen-ai, anime music, J-pop/J-rock, angsting, drawing, procrastinating, listening to music. Narrow-minded. Weird. College student. Does not have a bright future. XD

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My Name

ANGELI - Adventurous. Neat. Glorious. Elegant. Luscious(?!). Inspirational.

MEIRA - Misunderstood. Exquisite. Insane. Radiant. Artistic.
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The layout

The current layout features Syaoran and Sakura from the anime/manga Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicle. The pic was downloaded from the Aethereality Gallery. This layout was designed/edited by me with the use of Notepad and Adobe Photoshop. Except for the image/s, fonts, textures/patterns and brushes used, everything else is mine, so no take and no ripping off. Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicle is © CLAMP. This layout was uploaded on August 19, 2007.

The mood icons

Weee.. XD The GS/GSD Club mood icons are credited to The Gundam Seed Community @ LJ for posting(?) and/or advertising these mood icons. It features the SEED Club, which is like a collection of chibi Gundam SEED/Destiny pics. They're so cute, and I can't resist using them. The icons were supposed to be for LJ blogs only, but anyway... So, yeah.. I'm crediting.. so I guess it's okay.. hehehe *salutes* ^^;

Waii~ XD And~ the Trinity Blood mood icons... they're created by me, so no take and no ripping off. Thank you. XD *salutes*

My Tarot Card

Positive: The Chariot card represents the need to take control of ones actions to rise above the conflicts in ones life. The Chariot alerts us of the need to draw energy not only from our material resources but from within as well. The Chariot reminds us that we must have balanced energy in order to reap the rewards of all that life has given us. The Chariot represents a dualistic nature and that every action has an equal and opposite reaction. Focus and awareness is necessary in order to make the most out of the situation. Most importantly, the Chariot represents the need to hold on tightly to the reigns because should we let go we will face the likelihood of going way off course. Ultimately, if we don't hold tight and steer our way through, our life can get way out of control.

Negative: When reversed this card represents a lack of drive and focus or letting others manipulate us to their own ends. It can also mean arrogance or foolhardy behavior. A lack of control and imbalanced thought.

Monday, June 27, 2005
studying about why we have to study about how to study

Weird title... but yeah. It makes sense to me, somehow. So, we had our first day of S&L skills [Study and Learning Skills] classes. Big deal. It was BORING. Er... I dunno.. but I wasn't interested at all. And I noticed a lot of stuff in the subject- er.. no, in the teacher. I can't point out the reasons why but she somehow irritates me so much I wanna do something violent to her. o_O Nevermind.

Nothing really significant happened today, but yeah, I still have the angst in me (does that make sense?). Even if I'm with friends, I still feel alone somehow. Oh well. You know that already, right? I think I've said it before... so there.

Er.. yeah. I still feel alone... and sometimes this paranoia is taking over me. I still fear for the future. Dunno. I might be abandoned again by my friends... just like before.

Speaking of paranoia... my parents have gone overly paranoid again. This time, it's not about their opponents in court. It's now about our guild. My guild. Night Cross.

I hate to bring up this topic here, but I have to spill the beans (bleh. not literally.) because the guild (particularly Cagalli, Kenshin, and Kenneth) might be wondering why I'm avoiding to see them in real life. Well, guildmates, it's not my choice, and I really hate to obey this rule imposed upon me by my parents.

And the rule is to lay low, and just be an 'online friend' for the meantime.

I think I understand why, but sometimes it's still offending me to think about it. After all, they're my friends too, and having to hear some "insults" could offend me too. But I don't have a choice, do I?

I'm not saying goodbye to the guild, I'm just saying that I won't see you in real life for a while. Maybe we could just "see each other" online, in YM, or in RO...? But I promise you, even if you betray me [which is why my parents are imposing such a paranoid-oriented rule], I'd still be your friend.

I know I might not be making any sense. But please do understand. And for the last time, please don't misunderstand me. I'm not saying goodbye, okay? I'll just see you guys again someday, in real life. If God permits. ^^x

*yawns* fuwaaaaah it's getting late. I'd go sleep now. I have to recharge. Especially that we have our Gymnastics subject during Tuesdays... and, since tomorrow is a Tuesday....................

Ah well. Might as well sleep. Goodnight.
*cries off to sleep* I'm "leashed"...

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