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The Magician

Meira Kurosaki. Xedosarthea. Rey Za Burrel Barvon. Female, born on May 27, 1988. Loves anime / manga, coffee, going online, lazing around, yaoi, shounen-ai, anime music, J-pop/J-rock, angsting, drawing, procrastinating, listening to music. Narrow-minded. Weird. College student. Does not have a bright future. XD

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ANGELI - Adventurous. Neat. Glorious. Elegant. Luscious(?!). Inspirational.

MEIRA - Misunderstood. Exquisite. Insane. Radiant. Artistic.
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The current layout features Syaoran and Sakura from the anime/manga Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicle. The pic was downloaded from the Aethereality Gallery. This layout was designed/edited by me with the use of Notepad and Adobe Photoshop. Except for the image/s, fonts, textures/patterns and brushes used, everything else is mine, so no take and no ripping off. Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicle is © CLAMP. This layout was uploaded on August 19, 2007.

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Weee.. XD The GS/GSD Club mood icons are credited to The Gundam Seed Community @ LJ for posting(?) and/or advertising these mood icons. It features the SEED Club, which is like a collection of chibi Gundam SEED/Destiny pics. They're so cute, and I can't resist using them. The icons were supposed to be for LJ blogs only, but anyway... So, yeah.. I'm crediting.. so I guess it's okay.. hehehe *salutes* ^^;

Waii~ XD And~ the Trinity Blood mood icons... they're created by me, so no take and no ripping off. Thank you. XD *salutes*

My Tarot Card

Positive: The Chariot card represents the need to take control of ones actions to rise above the conflicts in ones life. The Chariot alerts us of the need to draw energy not only from our material resources but from within as well. The Chariot reminds us that we must have balanced energy in order to reap the rewards of all that life has given us. The Chariot represents a dualistic nature and that every action has an equal and opposite reaction. Focus and awareness is necessary in order to make the most out of the situation. Most importantly, the Chariot represents the need to hold on tightly to the reigns because should we let go we will face the likelihood of going way off course. Ultimately, if we don't hold tight and steer our way through, our life can get way out of control.

Negative: When reversed this card represents a lack of drive and focus or letting others manipulate us to their own ends. It can also mean arrogance or foolhardy behavior. A lack of control and imbalanced thought.

Sunday, June 26, 2005
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Did I tell you that my nephew will be returning here tonight? Did I? I think I did. If I didn't, at least you know now. Haha. I'm so confusing.

Anyway. Yeah. I'm currently "savoring" the last minutes of being online without any nagging. -.- I'm gonna miss the silence of the house. Really. And I'm going to miss those times wherein I could lock the door and cry [in my room]. TxT

Oh well.

I just dropped by gendou.com a few minutes ago, and I'm quite surprised that there were a lot of new mp3s uploaded today. And, as I see it, I think I have around 3 mp3s to download. Yay. At least I have something to do.

I was supposed to play aeRO but I don't feel like playing right now, since I don't have company. *coughcoughcagallicough* XD Oh well.

Maybe I'll just transfer my Accounting notes to the columnar book... o.o

Oh, and I'm currently addicted to the song "Pride" from Gundam Seed Destiny. The song reminds me of Evanescence. And also Night Cross. TxT I miss the guild TxT

Which reminds me, my parents are starting to take control of my life again. I'm not really against it, I'm just enduring it. But this time, it seems like they've gone overboard. They're ordering me to avoid some of my friends. No, not school friends. Some of my online friends. And, that includes the guild.

Sometimes I'm starting to feel pissed off regarding my parents' paranoia. They're saying that my guildmates are just there to know more about me, and soon enough they'll gang up on me and they'll take advantage of me. I have nothing against the guild, honestly speaking. But having my parents say something like that (about the guild) highly offends me. Sure, I still don't know much about the guild members, but they're still my friends. And it's somewhat annoying to hear someone say something about your friends, right?

I know I might not sound fair, but I already know I am selfish. But I'm still disturbed by what they said. Is it true? Is it going to happen? Or is it just another one of their assumptions which is a product of pure paranoia?

However, there was one part which I thought was right: You can't serve two masters. I have my friends in school, and it's my first time to be in a group with 7+ members. And I can't sacrifice them for the guild. At the same time, I can't sacrifice the guild to them.

I'm torn between two masters.

But, I'm not saying that I'd stop being their friends. I'm not also saying that I'd stop being loyal to the guild. But, as of now, I'd lay low, I guess. I hope the guild would understand.

I'm not saying goodbye, guildmates. It's just see you later. I hope.
But I could still contact you through the blog, right?
I'm sorry if it turned out this way. I really have no other choice. I'm "leashed", and I have to follow.

But, again, I AM NOT SAYING GOODBYE. It's just... see you later. Kahit sa YM, blog, or sa RO nalang tayo magkausap.

...It's been a while since I last experienced something like this. I'm confused...

0 broken chains [+] 8:31 PM