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The Magician

Meira Kurosaki. Xedosarthea. Rey Za Burrel Barvon. Female, born on May 27, 1988. Loves anime / manga, coffee, going online, lazing around, yaoi, shounen-ai, anime music, J-pop/J-rock, angsting, drawing, procrastinating, listening to music. Narrow-minded. Weird. College student. Does not have a bright future. XD

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ANGELI - Adventurous. Neat. Glorious. Elegant. Luscious(?!). Inspirational.

MEIRA - Misunderstood. Exquisite. Insane. Radiant. Artistic.
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The current layout features Syaoran and Sakura from the anime/manga Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicle. The pic was downloaded from the Aethereality Gallery. This layout was designed/edited by me with the use of Notepad and Adobe Photoshop. Except for the image/s, fonts, textures/patterns and brushes used, everything else is mine, so no take and no ripping off. Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicle is © CLAMP. This layout was uploaded on August 19, 2007.

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Weee.. XD The GS/GSD Club mood icons are credited to The Gundam Seed Community @ LJ for posting(?) and/or advertising these mood icons. It features the SEED Club, which is like a collection of chibi Gundam SEED/Destiny pics. They're so cute, and I can't resist using them. The icons were supposed to be for LJ blogs only, but anyway... So, yeah.. I'm crediting.. so I guess it's okay.. hehehe *salutes* ^^;

Waii~ XD And~ the Trinity Blood mood icons... they're created by me, so no take and no ripping off. Thank you. XD *salutes*

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Positive: The Chariot card represents the need to take control of ones actions to rise above the conflicts in ones life. The Chariot alerts us of the need to draw energy not only from our material resources but from within as well. The Chariot reminds us that we must have balanced energy in order to reap the rewards of all that life has given us. The Chariot represents a dualistic nature and that every action has an equal and opposite reaction. Focus and awareness is necessary in order to make the most out of the situation. Most importantly, the Chariot represents the need to hold on tightly to the reigns because should we let go we will face the likelihood of going way off course. Ultimately, if we don't hold tight and steer our way through, our life can get way out of control.

Negative: When reversed this card represents a lack of drive and focus or letting others manipulate us to their own ends. It can also mean arrogance or foolhardy behavior. A lack of control and imbalanced thought.

Thursday, March 02, 2006
Untitled# 25

[mood |

anxious]
[music | Crystal Kay x Chemistry - Two As One]

... so much for having a good day. *shrugs* Well, I somewhat enjoyed our swimming class, and we didn't have our Psychology class today. Hence, we went to school at 9am. But still... *whines* this week sucks.

It was my friend's birthday yesterday, but since we're busy, we didn't have a celebration of some sort. However, she said that she'll be treating us (no, not the whole class lol) to a restaurant. And this restaurant is in a mall that's waaaaaaaay to far from the school (and our house)... Anyway, I was okay with it before, until this sudden announcement came along. Our dean suddenly announced that there'd be a meeting on Saturday, which is the same day that we're supposed to celebrate our friend's [belated] birthday! Talk about bad timing. =___= On top of that, we (the students) were required to come with our parents... I'm not sure why, but that's what is written in the effing letter anyway.

Despite the announcement, my friend said that she would still push through with her "celebration". However, she said that she won't be attending the meeting (in other words, she'll leave her mom there in the school/meeting)... the same goes for my other friends. *shrugs* I wanna go too, but my parents are against it [as usual]. They were like, "So you're willing to sacrifice the meeting just for your friends?" and all...

I understand their point, but I really wanna go. It's because I'm always "absent" when they have a little outing... and it's kinda embarrassing since I'm always the only one who isn't around. And after that outing, they'd talk about it, of course. Then I'd be out of place again. *sighs*

Which reminds me, I'm turning 18 this year. But I can't feel that feeling of excitement. Most debutants feel excited and happy because they're turning into young adults. But I'm not feeling that way... Why? Because all I feel now is that nothing will change. I'd still be overprotected as I am now... after all, my parents never really took note of how old I am already.

Mou, this sucks. I really want to go, but I don't want to miss the meeting. After all, there's got to be a reason why they (the people from the dean's office) announced that the students must go with their parents... but then again, if that certain reason would be a stupid one, well... I'd be damned.

I'm kinda confused now and I dunno what to do. At the same time, I'm also annoyed (kinda) because my parents are JUST.TOO.PARANOID to let me go anywhere. In addition to that, they're... too.. obedient. They're easily bound by the rules/instructions stated. So if you even try to bend the rule, even for just a little, then they'd bitch at you 1000000000km/hr.

I love my parents, I really do. But then, my grudges tend to take hold of me, and I simply end up annoying them instead of pleasing them. But still. This overprotectiveness that I experience is slowly killing my sanity. The sad thing is, I can't even say what I'm feeling to my parents because I just get bitched at in return. So I just resort to... well... keeping my feelings to myself. Besides, during "peaceful" times, when I talk to them, I feel like I'm talking to thin air.

As of now, blogging is my only outlet. Sadly, I'm not online so much anymore these days. Why? There are a lot of reasons... but I'd only state three of them. One is, of course, my parents. Pressure, pressure, pressure. Two, my studies (and that FUCKING SHITLOAD OF PROJECTS!). Three, my budget. I dunno, I seem to be spending more these days... *sighs*

I know I'm too young to die. And as of now, I'm hoping that I'd be able to resist temptation. My life's driving me insane. Now I'm starting to wonder if this "life" is another name for "hell". No one cares... no one understands. And most of all, no one wants to listen. Mou, I really want to go where my online family is now... I want to be by their side, rather than being with people who don't even know who you really are, and they don't even accept you.

Setting that effing topic aside, I just noticed that there's something wrong going on in our subdivision. It seems that there's a *little* war going on here. Gawd, won't people ever learn? First there's a conflict regarding some people of the Philippines versus the President... and now there's even a conflict in our subdivision?! Wtf. I wonder what's next. A conflict in the house? Oh boy. This is embarrassing, especially for a Filipino like me. I think I wanna migrate to a new country =_=" sheesh.

But then again, there's nothing I could do anyway. After all, the president of the Philippines and the people of our subdivision won't even listen to the voice of the youth/s today... *shrugs*

.....................the world is ending. Yay. =p

Oh and I forgot to say something about our Accounting practice set. 8D All my effort was WASTED. I wasn't able to submit a trial balance this Wednesday. Just as I was about to write my trial balance from the general ledger, our professor arrived... and she collected all the trial balance sheets of my classmates. Not all of us were able to submit it... but there are more who submitted than those who didn't. So it literally means that those who didn't submit (including me) are DOOMED.

*sigh* so much for being a BS Accountancy student. =,="
Bai bai Accountancy.
And maybe... bai bai .. me? XD

1 broken chains [+] 8:45 PM