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The Magician

Meira Kurosaki. Xedosarthea. Rey Za Burrel Barvon. Female, born on May 27, 1988. Loves anime / manga, coffee, going online, lazing around, yaoi, shounen-ai, anime music, J-pop/J-rock, angsting, drawing, procrastinating, listening to music. Narrow-minded. Weird. College student. Does not have a bright future. XD

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ANGELI - Adventurous. Neat. Glorious. Elegant. Luscious(?!). Inspirational.

MEIRA - Misunderstood. Exquisite. Insane. Radiant. Artistic.
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The current layout features Syaoran and Sakura from the anime/manga Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicle. The pic was downloaded from the Aethereality Gallery. This layout was designed/edited by me with the use of Notepad and Adobe Photoshop. Except for the image/s, fonts, textures/patterns and brushes used, everything else is mine, so no take and no ripping off. Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicle is © CLAMP. This layout was uploaded on August 19, 2007.

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Weee.. XD The GS/GSD Club mood icons are credited to The Gundam Seed Community @ LJ for posting(?) and/or advertising these mood icons. It features the SEED Club, which is like a collection of chibi Gundam SEED/Destiny pics. They're so cute, and I can't resist using them. The icons were supposed to be for LJ blogs only, but anyway... So, yeah.. I'm crediting.. so I guess it's okay.. hehehe *salutes* ^^;

Waii~ XD And~ the Trinity Blood mood icons... they're created by me, so no take and no ripping off. Thank you. XD *salutes*

My Tarot Card

Positive: The Chariot card represents the need to take control of ones actions to rise above the conflicts in ones life. The Chariot alerts us of the need to draw energy not only from our material resources but from within as well. The Chariot reminds us that we must have balanced energy in order to reap the rewards of all that life has given us. The Chariot represents a dualistic nature and that every action has an equal and opposite reaction. Focus and awareness is necessary in order to make the most out of the situation. Most importantly, the Chariot represents the need to hold on tightly to the reigns because should we let go we will face the likelihood of going way off course. Ultimately, if we don't hold tight and steer our way through, our life can get way out of control.

Negative: When reversed this card represents a lack of drive and focus or letting others manipulate us to their own ends. It can also mean arrogance or foolhardy behavior. A lack of control and imbalanced thought.

Wednesday, March 15, 2006
Untitled# 27

[mood |

frustrated]
[music | Soukyuu no Fafner - Separation (Piano Version)]

To my dear parents...

I know I already had a lot of grudges against you before, but you need to hear me out. Today has been a tiring day, and your bitching has made me feel even more tired. I know that you might not be able to read this... but I'll type it anyway.

I really thank you for everything, I really do. But there's just one of those times wherein I just feel annoyed at some of your attitudes towards me. Don't you think it's a tad bit annoying if you blame ME for not being 'exposed' enough? You rarely allowed me to go out since I was a kid. Hence it's only natural for me to look for amusement while indoors-- and that's the time I was hooked on anime, tv, and the computer. So why blame me?

It's been almost 18 years that you have overprotected me, and it's almost 18 years that I never really got to know about the world around me. And every effing time I get curious, you reprimand me for being such. That's one of the reasons why I'm still an idiot. And now you blame me. You say that I should learn on my own, but how could I do that if you don't allow me to? And in the first place, if you want me to be "independent", you could've trained/taught me when I was still little, so I could get used to it.

And now, just because I'm an "idiot", you blame the things that I'm hooked on. Well, they could be bad in some way, I admit. But these are just one of those things that keep my sanity while I'm here, in this so-called "cage"...

I know coping with expectations is hard. I know that I have not been doing my best. But, all I want to say is that... can't you be a bit more supportive? If you want me to improve, then help me. I'd appreciate that more, instead of being silently crushed down into nothingness... I know I might be wrong. But it's what I feel right now, and I feel like crying.

Now that I'm done typing that, let's move on to the rant of the day~

...OMFG I SOOO HATE OUR FINANCE TEST. I'M GONNA FAIL THE TEST I TELL YOU! I'M GONNA FAAAAAAAAAIIIIILLLL!!!!!! =_=

I know I studied, but the questions were.. too tricky. =_= I never thought that our beloved professor would use the ABCDE sequence for the answers in the multiple choice part... T___T At that time, I thought, sana nanghula nalang ako... =___= I should've tried my luck with the guessing. But oh well. That's over. I'm just happy that THAT effing test is over. I'm just hoping that I would at least get a decent grade... *sighs*

Now~ off to reviewing Religion. Our professor said that the test won't be that easy, so I guess I just have to review in order to be ready. And I hate flunking Religion tests, since it's an easy subject, hence I should pass. Hehe.

Mou, three more days of agony left. Yep, and that includes tomorrow (even if Religion is our only test)... since we'll be having a make-up class in Accounting in the afternoon. Gawd. Imagine, our test in Religion would be from 8-10 am... and the make-up class would start at 2pm... WTF. What are we going to do from 10am-2pm?! We'd be wasting time again! Sheesh...

And~ for Friday. Accounting finals. GAAAH I'M DOOMED. And... English finals. It won't be an ordinary English test though, since for this part of the semester, we discussed more about Research rather than English. So I guess... I have to review. And re-read our research paper, since who knows, there might be a question there that would ask us to write a summary of our work or so O.O Besides, if that question would ever come up, I should give a decent answer... after all, I was the one who typed our paper, and I should've read all the pages while editing them, at least...

Man, I hate this. X_X I swear, after our qualifying exams, I'd go on an online spree~ and I'd also start on the Gaia drawings that I plan to sell. XD

So~ that's all for now =_= Bye.

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