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The Magician

Meira Kurosaki. Xedosarthea. Rey Za Burrel Barvon. Female, born on May 27, 1988. Loves anime / manga, coffee, going online, lazing around, yaoi, shounen-ai, anime music, J-pop/J-rock, angsting, drawing, procrastinating, listening to music. Narrow-minded. Weird. College student. Does not have a bright future. XD

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ANGELI - Adventurous. Neat. Glorious. Elegant. Luscious(?!). Inspirational.

MEIRA - Misunderstood. Exquisite. Insane. Radiant. Artistic.
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The layout

The current layout features Syaoran and Sakura from the anime/manga Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicle. The pic was downloaded from the Aethereality Gallery. This layout was designed/edited by me with the use of Notepad and Adobe Photoshop. Except for the image/s, fonts, textures/patterns and brushes used, everything else is mine, so no take and no ripping off. Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicle is © CLAMP. This layout was uploaded on August 19, 2007.

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Weee.. XD The GS/GSD Club mood icons are credited to The Gundam Seed Community @ LJ for posting(?) and/or advertising these mood icons. It features the SEED Club, which is like a collection of chibi Gundam SEED/Destiny pics. They're so cute, and I can't resist using them. The icons were supposed to be for LJ blogs only, but anyway... So, yeah.. I'm crediting.. so I guess it's okay.. hehehe *salutes* ^^;

Waii~ XD And~ the Trinity Blood mood icons... they're created by me, so no take and no ripping off. Thank you. XD *salutes*

My Tarot Card

Positive: The Chariot card represents the need to take control of ones actions to rise above the conflicts in ones life. The Chariot alerts us of the need to draw energy not only from our material resources but from within as well. The Chariot reminds us that we must have balanced energy in order to reap the rewards of all that life has given us. The Chariot represents a dualistic nature and that every action has an equal and opposite reaction. Focus and awareness is necessary in order to make the most out of the situation. Most importantly, the Chariot represents the need to hold on tightly to the reigns because should we let go we will face the likelihood of going way off course. Ultimately, if we don't hold tight and steer our way through, our life can get way out of control.

Negative: When reversed this card represents a lack of drive and focus or letting others manipulate us to their own ends. It can also mean arrogance or foolhardy behavior. A lack of control and imbalanced thought.

Saturday, July 15, 2006
"I had no idea he was so desperate..." -Ion

[mood |

angsty]
[music | that TB episode where Ion is angsting and stuff...]

I just realized that watching angsty/touching/tearjerking scenes (of any anime, but particularly TB?XD) is a good excuse for crying, even if your reason isn't really about what you're watching.. I guess all those annoyances are really getting on to me, I just realized that my tears are trying to resurface again. I just needed a good cry. My heart feels so heavy that I feel like it's going to break down or something.

My dad was in the room awhile ago, he was watching a random old movie (as usual) on my DVD player. Nothing special about that, since he wasn't so annoying (unlike a few days ago). My mom also went into my room and as usual, she started blabbing about studies and stuff.

I just can't help but feel restless because she keeps blabbing about me using the computer. I dunno, they're too prejudice. Does using the computer immediately mean that I'm wasting my time?

Oh, and she also "objected" against my idea for my English project (which is to make the cards look "old"). She said that it's messy, and she doesn't like how it looks since it would look dirty. She also said that I should just color it instead. No side "burns", no coffee-painting. =_=" She said I can continue with what I want, but judging by the way she said it, it's almost like she's indirectly saying "If you don't follow my advice, you'll be sorry". =_______="

You know, I feel like some sort of CHAINED puppet right now. I don't mind being marionetted by Dietrich but it's my parents who are marionetting me here dammit. I don't think I'd ever be given an opinion or something. I really want to let them know about how I feel, but all I get is nothing. I don't get any decent replies, all I get are prejudiced sermons. I just really don't know now, I don't know what to do with my wretched life...

So yeah, I'm currently watching that scene with Ion angsting over Radu betraying him and stuff (YES, I'M WATCHING IT OVER AND OVER, REWINDING IT OVER AND OVER), and I'm crying my heart out because:
1) I feel like crying my heart out.
2) I know how it feels to be betrayed, just like Ion there.

And I'm pretty sure that my eyes would be all weird later, and I'm sure that I'd be kinda sleepy during the missa (mass) later. Gawd, am I turning into some sort of demon or what?O_o

Ah what the heck. I'll still cry my heart out while I have the time... and the chance. And now is, most probably, the time to do so, before I turn completely insane...

1 broken chains [+] 5:54 PM