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The Magician

Meira Kurosaki. Xedosarthea. Rey Za Burrel Barvon. Female, born on May 27, 1988. Loves anime / manga, coffee, going online, lazing around, yaoi, shounen-ai, anime music, J-pop/J-rock, angsting, drawing, procrastinating, listening to music. Narrow-minded. Weird. College student. Does not have a bright future. XD

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My Name

ANGELI - Adventurous. Neat. Glorious. Elegant. Luscious(?!). Inspirational.

MEIRA - Misunderstood. Exquisite. Insane. Radiant. Artistic.
And your name means...?

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The layout

The current layout features Syaoran and Sakura from the anime/manga Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicle. The pic was downloaded from the Aethereality Gallery. This layout was designed/edited by me with the use of Notepad and Adobe Photoshop. Except for the image/s, fonts, textures/patterns and brushes used, everything else is mine, so no take and no ripping off. Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicle is © CLAMP. This layout was uploaded on August 19, 2007.

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Weee.. XD The GS/GSD Club mood icons are credited to The Gundam Seed Community @ LJ for posting(?) and/or advertising these mood icons. It features the SEED Club, which is like a collection of chibi Gundam SEED/Destiny pics. They're so cute, and I can't resist using them. The icons were supposed to be for LJ blogs only, but anyway... So, yeah.. I'm crediting.. so I guess it's okay.. hehehe *salutes* ^^;

Waii~ XD And~ the Trinity Blood mood icons... they're created by me, so no take and no ripping off. Thank you. XD *salutes*

My Tarot Card

Positive: The Chariot card represents the need to take control of ones actions to rise above the conflicts in ones life. The Chariot alerts us of the need to draw energy not only from our material resources but from within as well. The Chariot reminds us that we must have balanced energy in order to reap the rewards of all that life has given us. The Chariot represents a dualistic nature and that every action has an equal and opposite reaction. Focus and awareness is necessary in order to make the most out of the situation. Most importantly, the Chariot represents the need to hold on tightly to the reigns because should we let go we will face the likelihood of going way off course. Ultimately, if we don't hold tight and steer our way through, our life can get way out of control.

Negative: When reversed this card represents a lack of drive and focus or letting others manipulate us to their own ends. It can also mean arrogance or foolhardy behavior. A lack of control and imbalanced thought.

Monday, December 04, 2006
Ugh. Someone please...

[mood |

enraged...kinda]
[music | the TV, and my parents]

... someone please, enlighten me. (Read: enlighten, not scold) XD

Meh, I dunno what to post, really... since I'm kinda paranoid at the moment for my parents are in my room, and they might be wondering what the f*** am I typing.

I dunno, for some reason, I feel enraged. Well, kinda. Maybe it's because of what my parents were "indirectly talking about" awhile ago. It's something like, they were talking among themselves, but as I hear the conversation, I had the feeling that they were indirectly "scolding" me. Sorry, I dunno how to describe it in English. For those who understand Filipino, what I meant is "Nagpaparinig sila... again.

They told me about two things... and these two things were things that I usually did when I was just a little kid.

First, they told me that when I was a kid, I usually prayed while kneeling down. While now, I don't pray while kneeling down, and [even though it's true] I tend to pray while lying down, before I sleep.

According to my current Religion class, prayer doesn't really require for you to mind how you pray (whether standing, with hands raised, with crossed arms, etc.)... so why should my parents say that? Are they saying that I should always kneel when I pray? Wtf. Forgive me, but I can't really see their point at what they said...

The second was about me eating in my room and not joining them at the dinner table. Okay, I admit, it's quite wrong, but I'm kinda fed up sometimes of eating with them especially if I only get scolded at the dinner table (which, removes my appetite and destroys my mood).. but meh.

I can't help but think that.. with all of these (that they said), it seems that they want the old me back. They want the "child" version of me back, because back then, I was their angel. Now, it seems that I am nothing more than a demon.

A lot of things are floating around my mind and it seems that my parents can't accept the "changing" of my being/personality. I guess I inherited this from them, considering that I am quite unable to adapt to change...

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